Gill Edwards wrote: “We always get what we want (Is she writing about the 4th dimension?), so if you are not creating it, you must be blocking it.”

This is why the Law of Attraction has caused me to blame myself each time I got challenges. Yet Joe Vitale’s Ho’oponopono never allows blaming.
I keep swinging to my old limiting beliefs!
Edwards offered tips:
“You need to clarify what stands in the way:
negative beliefs or attitudes
fears and doubts
anger and resentment
guilt
feeling undeserving
or
payoffs such as self-pity, punishing others, feeling better than others or avoiding responsibility.

GOODNESS! The list seems to say only the Dalai Lama can get his desires.
Edwards continued: “What are the excuses you give yourself?”
At this point I choose not to be further frustrated. I choose to listen to M Tamura: “Instead of insisting that we get what we want, how we want it and when and where, by being compassionate we allow our whole process of receiving to develop in its own way and time.”

But as always I choose Boorstein. She wrote:
“There are all sorts of things I don’t like. And in response to what I find unpleasant, I often feel dismayed or impatient or annoyed or disappointed or grieved.”
“What I try to do is keep my mind from fighting with my experience, confusing and isoating itself in self-centered despair.”
“…the mind’s acceptance of the situation, free to allow space for new possibilities to come into view.”

No need to be nervous! No need to be jittery about the Law of Attraction.
For years I have been reacting to irritating text messages re loans, condos, food franchises etc. I kept on forgetting what I learned from M. Tamura:

“When crises arise in your life, they are not due to something inherently wrong with you.”

“Although you may take them personally, situations in your life don’t happen to you. They just happen. And you are involved in them according to the way you respond to [them].”

I have found it hard not to blame myself when: I misplace things; when I get unhappy text messages; when I get negative news in my Facebook News Feeds. I agonize over saying/writing the wrong things. I feel bad over inefficient/poor services.

I automatically ask myself: “How did I attract such things?”

These past 2 months or so, I have been agitated by biased national news as well as by international interpretations of the country’s situation.

Sylvia Boorstein wrote:”It’s part of the whole system of painful things that happen to human beings and you can manage.”

Laura Day wrote: “Things are what they are. Ruminating won’t change them. Nor will it provide an insurance policy for avoiding pain  in the future. In fact it perpetuates it.”

Gill Edwards and  Rabbi Brickner left their bodies years ago. Wayne Dyer went last year. So I choose to be guided by M. Tamura, Tato Malay and of course my husband Emil who are still alive. I aspire to be like Sylvia Boorstein who tuned 80 last month.

Sylvia wrote about meeting challenges: “…I relax see what my options are and choose the best of them. I won’t always be pleased but I’ll be happy.”

I learned some practical guidelines from Gill Edwards: “Whenever we talk of using will power…we mean declaring war upon the Basic Self. And it doesn’t work. Eventually, the Basic Self fights back. And feeling out of control…”
“What we resist, persists.”
“The only long-term solution is to co-operate, to befriend your enemy and realise it was trying to help you all along. (The enemy is not any external force; it is a challenge from the Basic Self)

M. Tamura has warned against judging ourselves lest we split into the one who judges and the one judged.

Boorstein is ever so kind: “Sweetheart, you are in pain. Relax. Take a breath. Let’s pay attention to what is happening. Then we’ll figure out what to do.”

From “Infinite Possibilities”

“Our first responsibility in life is not to make the world a better place or to tend to those less fortunate but to live up to our own high standards, to act with faith that our dreams are meant to be and to maintain a tolerance and compassion for our own divine journey.”

This was not how I was taught in school. Neither did I teach this!!!!
From Gill Edwards:

“I believe that our first responsibility is to make our own lives work. By finding inner peace, for example, we are contributing towards global peace.”

My own sister, Julie Escay, and Tato Malay are living examples of the above. I have chosen to be guided by the two quotations above.

I’m 73 years old. I am happily recovering from a hip surgery. The last time I left our condo building was almost a month ago. While apparently isolated from the world, I am actually inundated with soooo many challenges/stimuli.

Pick any day. I  deal with many stimuli created by my ever-productive mind sometimes as early as 1 am. I have significantly tamed my thoughts thanks to Boorstein, Tamura, Brickner, Malay etc. But it is still a challenge not to enter into darkness like what happened in the 90s.

I am grateful my husband is stable emotionally, mentally and whatever “-ally”.

Often I get updates from our daughter now a British citizen. Thank God. For more than a month now I get only pleasant messages.

As early as 9 AM I get pesky cellphone messages about food franchise, loans, condos etc. When I go to Facebook, I have to deal with ads after every 3 or more posts from friends. To think Facebook keeps repeating they are managing my preferences! AS THOUGH THEY CARE.
Makes me feel I am dealing with the government.

Every so often I get irritating PLDT calls from promo agents. An unforgettable one was from a female agent who kept insisting on talking to my husband even after I identified myself several times as the wife. Eventually I got peeved. She thought she had better chances of convincing my husband. I threatened to report her to Mr Pangilinan. She stopped! But how could I report? I was not able to get her name. Perhaps, the trouble was she kept on using Filipino while I kept speaking English. And my English gets better when I am angry!

Dealing with delivery boys/men whether for food or laundry can sometimes be entertaining but at other times be trying to my patience.

I often speak English because my Filipino is not good enough.One particular young man is an eager learner. Once when he delivered food at 6pm he greeted me good afternoon. I pointed to our wall clock and taught him “Good evening”. Next day he delivered in the morning. He was smart enough to know how to greet me.

I have many other anecdotes but surely with the above I can claim I can isolate myself in our tower on the 37th floor but I am still vulnerable.

I would like to ed with a quote from Tamura:
“Although you may take them (crises) personally, situations in life don’t happen to you. They just happen and you get involved in them according to the way you respond to [them].”

The Buddhism of Sylvia Boorstein inspires me to trust life. She wrote:
“Terrible things do happen. I do believe that fully mindful prayer, undistracted presence establishes the capacity of the mind to see clearly, and when necessary to surrender gracefully.”

“…that it is possible for the mind to be at ease whatever the circumstance.”

“…the capacity of the mind to manage even very challenging situations gracefully.”

“…inclined the mind to the insight that everything is manageable, absolutely everything.”

Thus my prayer has been as inspired by Rabbi Balfour Brickner. I pray to access my finer self, deal with my emotions, access a deeper understanding of the situation and reach out for a solution.
M. Tamura wrote that the answers are already in me.