According to Ronald Mann:”Spirituality refers to one’s direct, personal relationship with God without prescribing any particular path or way for sustaining hat relationship or any one specific concept of God.”

But i do believe God is spirit. God is energy. God is Source. Does this mean I am not spiritual? Actually, it makes no difference to me. I think this is the 7th principle of Serge Kahili’s “Urban Shamanism”.

I believe I chose to leave Source to enter into this particular life but I did not leave Source without being equipped. God gave me all that is needed to follow my particular pathway and to be assured of returning to Source.

I may have forgotten what it was before i left Source because i was spirit then without senses, without he human faculties. When i entered this life i became subjected to the programs and menus of life. Challenges. Tests. Irritants. I believe they are not from God to test me. What for? God is Source. Ultimately, everything and everybody will return to Source.

In my forgetfulness i often get agitated with challenges  but my recovery gets faster daily. I now am even braver and even more creative, firm in my belief that God gave me all that I need to meet the challenges.

Every day I get better in connecting back to Source.

  “Looking past our customary answers can be disconcerting at first, confusing, or even painful, but it allows us to open to our actual experiences and see what’s really there.”  (“Zen Body”

The above explains how I came about my present beliefs.

God is Source. God is complete. God does not need anything nor anybody. God does not even need to be worshiped. That is why I can no longer believe God tries or tests me. What for? As SOURCE, ultimately everything and everybody will return to God. God does not need to find out who can return.

I can no longer believe in the forbidden fruit. I believe that before I chose to leave God to enter into this life I chose my own pathway. God gave me everything needed for my pathway.I was assured of my return. What I can’t understand is why I came into this life with forgetfulness!

The moment I entered into this life, the Universe subjected me into its programs and menus for options.

God equipped me with everything needed. It is incumbent on me to  listen to my Inner Guidance to creatively respond to the programs and challenges of the Universe.

I believe I have chosen my own pathway; I don’t believe in the one size fits all belief!!!!!

I grew up with a litany of rules and responsibilities. I lived in a culture of salvation, struggle, guilt etc. Esther Hicks, Neale Walsch, Sylvia Boorstein, Gill Edwards, Mike Dooley, etc have liberated me.

Esther Hicks:”…to be self-serving is a good Thing for when you care enough to bring yourself into alignment with the greater part of Who-You-Are, while you have certainly served yourself (and you know that because you feel so much better) you now are in a position to be of value to others.”

Neale Walsch: “It is important to understand that life is nothing but energy. It is energy organized and who does the organizing? we do. Surprisingly the answer is…us. life is pure energy that circles back into itself.”

Boorstein: “Sweetheart, you are in pain. relax. Take a break. Let’s pay attention to what is happening. Then we’ll figure out what to do.”

Gill Edwards: “I believe that our first responsibility is to make our own lives work.”

Mike Dooley: ” Our first responsibility in life is not to make this world a better place or to tend to those less fortunate but to live up to our own high standards, to act with faith that our dreams are meant to be and to maintain a tolerance and compassion for our own divine journey.”

Gill Edwards: “I believe that our first responsibility is to make our own lives work.”

Mike Dooley has a more detailed statement: “Our first responsibility in life is not to make the world a better place or to tend to the less fortunate but to live up to our own high standards, to act with faith that our dreams are meant to be and to maintain a tolerance and compassion for our own divine journey.”

Dooley indeed confirms we are made to the image and likeness of God. It strengthens my belief that before we came to this life we knew what we were supposed to do. We knew who we were. But we forgot everything when we came to this life. Forgetfulness just may be the Original Sin of religion.

I certainly like Dooley’s statement. It heals me of the compelling social burden imposed by both the Church and the school during all my past. I learned from both Gill Edwards and Mike Dooley in my late 60s!!!

“By being so responsible to ourselves, the world will become a better place and those around you will richly benefit not just from the love you’d share but for the example you become.”       (Dooley)

Carolyn Myss is even kinder:”Spiritual instruction teaches us to keep our focus on ourselves – not in an egocentric way but as a way of consciously managing our energy and power.”

Carolyn Myss may as well teach mental hygiene!!!!! She could very well prevent depressions.

O’Murchu: “Redemption is a divine-human process of befriending those elements of our experience which threatens our security and integrity, rather than an act of rescue by an external, divine agent.”

I resonate deeply with the above paragraph. At this point allowing my husband to follow his path threatens my security. His frequent trips and days away for seminars create havoc by way of of my Inner Child and ISTJ personality, draining my energy through intensive conflict with my Higher Self.

The easier way is to just listen to my Inner Child and my ISTJ personality and go back to controlling. But I have tasted he joy and glory of self-mastery and responding creatively to situations. I have experienced how it is to create my own reality! I know how it is to be divine.
I have personally experienced that it is not God who sends trials, tribulations, challenges etc.    I have been helped by Hicks, Dr Page, Alan Seale, M. Tamura, Tato Malay etc.

Healing, like redemption, requires taking actions. “It is not a passive event. we are meant to draw on our inner resources, to find the material strength to leave behind our out-moded beliefs and behaviors and to  see ourselves in new, healthy ways to take up our beds and walk.”     (Caroline Myss)

I have to recall that I have drawn the distinction between the universe and my God. This is my response to the teachings of Esther Hicks about the law of attraction. I need to trust the Ho’oponopono more – to clear my memories.

I opt to be firm in my resolve not to blame anything nor anybody, much less God. I refuse to attribute pains, challenges etc to God.

Taking good care of my body is key. I need to remember: “I was so anxious that I was blocking my awareness of hat was going on at a more subtle level.”  (Dr William Bloom)

Dr Sarno believes that all pain is caused by oxygen depletion. I need to guard against my emotions constricting my muscles and my blood vessels. I can use my WAKI pen more. I can apply Dr Netario Cruz’ magnesium more often to help me obtain more oxygen.

For now I will have to be helped by oral medicines to manage my stomach and body aches. But I expect to liberate myself soon.

“Spiritual instruction teaches us to keep our focus on ourselves – not in an egocentric way but as a way of consciously managing our energy and power.”    (Caroline Myss)

I firmly believe I can create my reality.