Using Gary Zukov’s “multisensory” human concept, I enjoyed rather than feel frustrated by yet again waking up in the wee hour of the morning. I celebrated the various subtle movements inside my body. I suspect I had adhesions and twisting of muscles/organs as an aftermath of my 2012 mild stroke.

With each very deep breath from the pit of my stomach and with accompanying jaw movements, I thanked my body (a la Urban Shaman) for becoming healthy.

I recalled Zukov’s interview in the Alps by Lilou Mace. “It is written” according to Paolo Coello as reported by Zukov. YOUR HIGHEST POTENTIAL. I believe that when I chose to enter into this life (not banished I was given all I would need to explore what it is to be made to the image and likeness of God.

Instead of a personal contract with God, I now believe in the HIGHEST POTENTIAL concept. I was corrected by a Facebook User. God does not have terms and conditions.
So, I have changed my contract belief!

The multisensory human concept of Zukov along with the Lilou Mace interview in the Alps have expanded my consciousness. Indeed ALL POWER COMES FROM WITHIN. Principle #6 of Urban Shaman. I am both a body and a soul and the faster I treat my body lovingly, the faster I will heal and pursue my purpose for coming into this life effectively.

For all my intensive Ho’oponopono work of more than a year, I realize I am still stuck in my Biblical “DOMINION” phase. Control is still my major Program/memory. All my management courses and my administrative experiences have not helped me to flow.

Control was a very important component in my worldview from childhood through my working years. Anticipatory planning was the enabling tool. Day-in-day-out I was on red alert.

I thank God hat our only daughter defied control through her unique charming ways. It was as though she was already aware of her divinity. It was a blessing that she left home for college. Her early travels must have helped her. I am consoled that she has repeatedly declared her gratitude for our loving parenting.

Thanks to my husband’s sharing about Dr Serafin Talisayon. I have moved from spirituality to consciousness work. I understand “CONSCIOUSNESS” is a neutral term; it does not send shivers to those who are staunch religion-based devotees.

Coincidentally (There are no coincidences, I know) somebody from Facebook recently corrected me. I commented on a post by Neale Walsch about my personal contract with God. But the Facebook user pointed out that God does not terms nor conditions.

My personal contract with God may be considered a “pet theory” in the paradigm of Dr Talisayon. It has been working for me. However, I can change. According to Principle # 7 of “Urban Shaman” there is always another way of doing things.

I dream that I will be liberated from the programs that prevent me from going about my adventure into this earth with ease and grace. I dream that Ho’oponopono will so connect me with God that I can focus on my divinity.

I want to be cleared of my productivity worldview. Martha Beck describes this worldview such: “All of us have been taught to make things happen in the physical world…it takes…working, working,working, working, working.”

“Then it helps if we work harder.”

I want to be liberated from the economy of salvation belief. I want to unlearn the concept of travailing: suffering so that God can bless others.

I am sure God is kinder and wiser than Esther Hicks and the Law of Attraction. I am sure God knows more than Joe Vitale. I believe God will inspire me what to do.

Joe Vitale observed: “People don’t get what they say so much as what they feel. Most people who pray don’t believe they will be heard or they will be helped. Most people pray from a place of desperation which means they will get more of what hey are feeling:more desperation.”

I want to introduce a new program into my consciousness. The new program consists of using the Ho’oponopono not as a clever trick to avoid suffering nor as a psychological technique. I want to learn from “Freeing the Soul from Fear” which teaches that everything has to be viewed as soul work not merely as therapy.

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More than ever I believe I am my best doctor. Lately, for all the careful monitoring of my health, challenges seem to drown me. Many new symptoms appear. I don’t want to believe it’s my thoughts attracting them. Neither do I want to blame the symptoms on my age.

Ho’oponopono inspired me to go back to a book a student gave me in the late 1980s when I had a voice problem. The book on the thyroid had chapters on blood pressure and diabetes.

Today, Sept 3, the index finger of my right hand is pain free, thanks to the Evening Primrose Oil capsules recommended by the book.

So I am back to taking herbal remedies to counteract the damages brought about by my medications prescribed by my many doctors. it is a very difficult battle against BIG PHARMA and mainstream doctors. But I am no longer alone! So many have awakened!

I’m very lucky, my meals are delivered by a former chef who understands my needs. God truly provides.

Of course Dr Jean Netario Cruz’ Magnesium spray is still a staple in my health protocol. I help myself with Facebook posts of Dr Lipton, Mike Dooley, Neale Walsch, Dr Christine Page etc.

Dr Christine Page posted on Facebook: “Be patient: the universe never gives you more then you can handle in the moment.”

In my current worldview/Philosophy, I have a loving God who is not out to test me. In fact I believe I came into this earth blessed by God with everything I need to explore what it means to be made to the image and likeness of God. This I was taught by the Catholic Catechism when I was in the Grade School so long ago. I was taught the same thing in High School. Even in College with 24 units of Theology I learned the same thing. It is such a puzzlement that the Church keeps dis-empowering people by insisting that man has to suffer in order to be saved. Saved from what?

But here comes Dr Page with a benevolent universe. My belief is that God does not test me; it’s the universe that doles out challenges.

It is consoling to learn from Dr Page that I can handle the challenges of the universe that is benevolent after all.

Ho’oponopono absolves the Universe also: “There’s nothing out there. It’s all in you. Whatever you experience, you experience inside yourself.”

Even Shamanism assures me that I can handle the challenges.

Years ago, I learned from Sylvia Boorstein that i can very well manage according to he Buddhist/Jewish wisdom.

Yesterday, August 29, Mike Dooley posted on Facebook an article that as pat of our divinity there is actually nothing that is not good.

Last August 28, early in the morning I personally got a Facebook message from Dr Page about the benevolence of the universe:

“Always (benevolent). But sometimes we don’t recognize the gift until much later.”