Food choices,
Convenience,
Trees,trees,
Family bonding,
This November.

I am constantly evolving. Blessings have been pouring since Easter Sunday. I can’t remain the same.

I choose no longer to react but to respond to the countless blessings. I am convinced my healing pathway is via books, the Internet and special people.

I am not about to turn this essay into a kind of formal research with a long list of related literature. You go to the website of my husband for that!

The Internet has been serving me primarily through Facebook and my website. Also i have learned a lot through YouTube. I get my music from youTube.

I won’t and I can’t enumerate all the special people in my pathway. My people are primarily: Dr Sarno, Dr Lipton, Dr Page, Gary Zukav, Mike Dooley etc. My daughter and husband and my son-in-law; my adopted son Marc Co and Vanessa Tan Arceo his girlfriend; tato Malay in a significant way; my cousin Giselle.

My prayer warriors from the dead. Many are my former students and colleagues.

lately, my many blessings are manifestations of my thoughts. I have been guided by the 7 principles of Urban Shamanism and Sylvia Boorstein’s clear Mind and open HEART.

I was happy with my health protocols for months. After an enjoyable time at the mall recently, all of a sudden I had an attack of ocular migraine. AGAIN. This time I was calm, very calm but irritated. In fact I wanted to defy the migraine and stay longer in the mall. But I decided to be prudent and to go home.

On the way home, I tried a bizarre protocol i learned from the YouTube. i bit into a pencil I luckily brought in my bag. (I keep a pencil ready in my bag. I have several in our condo. Two pieces I keep with me in bed).

In the lobby of our building, I nonchalantly chatted with those who greeted me. By then I had taken the pencil off my mouth.

Back in our condo, I calmly unpacked what we bought. I even placed in hangers the two blouses bought by my husband for our trip to Singapore.

Then I sat down and concentrated on the pencil cure. it worked. AGAIN.
So I remain open to the 7th Principle of Urban Shamanism. There is always another way to do anything. But for now i will stick to he pencil cure.

Bente Hansen: “You are a spirit being having a human experience and are here to learn who you really are and what your purpose is.”

I am originally SPIRIT. I became human to explore what it is to be made to the image and likeness of God. I don’t believe i was banished into this “Valley of tears.”

This explains why according to “Urban Shaman” I have to live at different levels.
“Operating at second level (SPIRIT) in a primarily first level world (HUMAN) is not easy but is the key to a shaman’s success. What makes it especially challenging is that you also have to hold first level awareness so you can communicate with others at that level.”

I just realized while typing this essay how taxing my life has been this 2017. Staying on the second level of awareness when I am alone in the condo is no joke while my Monkey mind is busy thinking of our daughter and my husband very engaged in their respective first level world of work! I know I have committed to allowing both our daughter and my husband to follow their respective pathways. Sustaining the two levels of awareness has taken its toll on my body!

Joe Vitale prescribes the Ho’oponopono way: “Too many people,myself included, were visualizing and affirming in order to MANIPULATE the world. I now knew that isn’t necessary. You’re better off going with the flow while constantly cleaning (Ho’oponopono prayer) whatever comes up.”

I am thankful I don’t have to visualize nor affirm but cleaning the Ho’oponopono way is just as tedious. Reminds me of constant repetition of formula prayers of religion!

I am still predominantly living in my world of limiting beliefs. More than 60 years of living in fear, control, management principles, social conditioning are a heavy load to be cleansed by the Ho’oponopono.

I often catch myself sabotaging my new world view which is not more han 3 years old.

i believe my mild stroke in 2012 and my hip sugery of 2016 are manifestations of my limiting beliefs.

Martha Beck: “Its the emotional quality of grasping, clutching and neediness that bespeaks an underlying expectation of loss and deprivation that causes us to create nightmares in he world of form.”

Bente Hansen wrote something about the self knowing what is best for itself.

I know I must discern and make choices. Principle # 7 teaches that there is always another way of doing anything.

I have no intention of adopting again the one-size-fits-all pit fall of religion. My dogma is: There is definitely a God and He/She is on my side!

“Why we Make Mistakes” by Joseph T Hallinan: “A great many dy-to-day errors come about because we frame, or look at, an issue in the wrong way.”

For soooo long my life was framed by the productivity frame.
Margaret Wheatley: “All of u have been taught to make things happen in the physical world. We know what it takes: setting goals, rolling up our sleeves, putting pleasure aside, and working, working, working, working, working.”

“Then it helps if we work harder.”
My early senior years used wistful frames.
Joe Vitale: “Too many people, myself included, were visualizing and affirming, in order to manipulate the world.”

Joseph T. Hallinan: “…how we frame an issue can greatly influence our response to it.”
I have allowed Gill Edwards to influence me with her: “I believe that our first responsibility is to make our own lives work.”

I find Mike Dooley even more specific and relevant with his: “Our first responsibility in life is not to make the world a better place or to tend to those less fortunate bt to live up to our own high standards to act in faith that our dreams are meant to be and to maintain a tolerance and compassion for our own divine journey.”

After I turned 73, I got tired of manipulating the world. Joe Vitale: “too many people, myself included, were visualizing and affirming to manipulate the world.”

At 74 I love life but I have seen how anticipation, worries, control, grasping etc steal so much from cherishing he moments.

I choose to be wise like: Joe Vitale: “I now know that isn’t necessary (visualizing and affirming). You’re better off going in the flow while continually cleaning (Ho’oponopono) whatever comes up.