“We each have acquired a perspective about the nature of life.”   (Jim Gilkeson)
“The process of learning anything new can force us to revise the stories we tell ourselves, and the belief structures that
live within us, for these flavor our perceptions of the world and determine what we UNDERSTAND, ACCEPT and REJECT. ”  (Jim Gilkeson)

The above paragraphs explain why I claim: I am my best doctor; Healing is ultimately self-healing; I choose to allow my husband and our daughter to follow their individual paths even if they turn out to be unlike what I envisioned when I was still  consciously an ISTJ.

“This is what people often mean when they say we each create  our own experience of the world.”   (Jim Gilkeson)

Through months of darkness of our daughter in London, I opted to create my own reality where she would triumph over her challenges. Supporting her while seriously working on my own healing was overwhelming. This was compounded by the very hectic schedule of my husband with trips and days away for seminars. I had a hard time not being resentful; I had proclaimed my intention to allow both my husband and our daughter to follow their individual pathways.

I went over my experiences in the 90s when I had severe clinical depression. I vowed not to wallow in negativity. I believed with my body and soul and spirit that I had been given all the gifts I would need before I came to this life.

“That concept becomes increasingly apparent as we work at the energetic level, where we are challenged to interpret expressions without the usual reference points.”    (Jim Gilkeson)

“The result of our inner work is far more valuable to the soul than outside accomplishments for in reality it is only the former that can pass with us into death.”   (DR. Page)

I am still alive after the challenges and enjoying the fruits of my inner work. Definitely without the usual reference points!

The night before my husband left for a lived-in planning seminar, i had an awful case of acid reflux. I am reviewing what Dr Christine Page wrote about INDIGESTION:

“…assess whether or not we are using fear, anxiety and guilt to avoid making personal decisions…”. I don’t think his applies to me. Long before the weekend, I told my husband I wanted him to go – that I would be able to take care of myself.

“Taking responsibility for our own happiness or standing in our own power.” This was what inspired me to let my husband go and for me to be alone for the weekend. After all this is not the first time. It is the first for 2017. The concern is over the many challenges his schedule for the next months before our Singapore trip pose for me. And to think the agreement was to have no trips before Singapore!

“By becoming overwhelmed by situations with the resultant feelings of helplessness, we can ignore the need to take responsibility for our actions.”

While I do get overwhelmed I never feel helpless! So unlike some prayers composed by my church. For years now, with the help of Ho’oponopono I don’t blame anything or anybody. I don’t even blame myself.

Alone, I used the time to carefully monitor my food intake. I have taken only what in the past did not irritate my stomach. I have stayed away from butter and sugar. I have subsisted on more protein than carbo.

My experience! I can handle any issue as long as my stomach is not in pain. I can walk faster and confidently with my cane. I can think clearly. I am more patient.

“…by reducing our problems into manageable pieces and then calmly dealing with each in turn, we gain confidence and he knowledge that we do have choices in our life.”

“Security comes from knowing who you are on a DEEP LEVEL (beyond name, nationality, gender, job etc) loving yourself whatever happens, being flexible….”

Of course, I do have the choice as to whether to be a slave to my stomach or not!

Dr Christine Page: “The soul will always attempt to find a method of relieving the system of excess energy either through the physical body or through external circumstances.”

I now think of various types of excess energy in my own life: useless worries and ruminating; bottled up emotions; frustrations with people who don’t think like me; disruptions in my daily plans (too many); misplacing my glasses and even my cane; reacting to missed calls from agents of condos etc.

Dr Christine Page: “But that which is not expressed externally will through the universal law of balance and equilibrium need to be experienced internally to restore harmony.”

Ideas, even dreams have to be released. This can have moral/ethical implications. It is as if the universe won’t allow anybody to keep things to himself/herself1 i suspect the universe does not favor Introverts. I feel that he universe wants the Inner Being to be empty for Spirit to be buoyant.

Ideas, dreams, feelings have to be expressed externally. Bottled up thoughts, emotions become toxins that cause disequilibrium, disharmony, dis-ease.

Health and spirituality are challenges no matter where or when for me. I choose not to argue with the teachings of the church. I would rather do research on what Dr John Sarno has to say about repressed emotions.

Dr Page has something that may address desires/emotions that the church may not approve of.
“If we have lost sight of our purpose and have little connection to the core, it’s easy to cling onto old redundant sources of assurance most of which revolve around deeply engrained belief systems energized by fear.”

I look forward to the time hen what Dr Page has written about will come true.
“This may sound too radical but this is the way of the future, where personal and  inner morality guide an individual’s activities not man-made rules, FULLY APPRECIATIVE THAT THERE IS NOTHING WE DO< SAY OR THINK THAT DOESN’T AFFECT SOMEONE ELSE SOMEWHERE AND EVENTUALLY RETURN TO US.”

I like the idea of personal responsibility.

Recently I wrote: “…What is needed is new rut, new pathways. Challenging indeed! More consciousness work but i am being guided.”

I don’t know who among my prayer warriors from the dead have guided me. But I was led to use my WAKI pen on my back especially the left side and below the shoulder blade.
Relief was experienced when the pen was applied on the front side of my left shoulder, below the neck and nearest the edge of the shoulder.

As I understood the metaphors of pains and their locations I experienced more improvements in my walking. As I heard our daughter giving a lot of positive feedback about our parenting, I felt the knots of responsibility loosening from my shoulder. Muscles which have hardened with the burden of responsibility relaxed

A lot of releases were experienced also when I applied the WAKI pen  in the middle of the sternum.

Who our daughter has become is a testimony  to what a loving team work between husband and wife can manifest.