I am grateful for the guidance from my favorite authors and Facebook friends:dead or alive. But in the final analysis, I have to make choices on what is best for my own spiritual journey. Needless to say healthcare is a vital part of my spirituality.

PRINCIPLE # 6 ALL POWER COMES FROM WITHIN
Dr Christine Page wrote in “Mirrors of Existence”: “All the knowledge you need is already present within your own consciousness waiting to b brought to the light.”

I interpret the above to mean that, indeed, God gave me all that i would need in my spiritual journey to experience what it is to be made to the image and likeness of God.

It means I have to be healed of memories/programs that prevent me from getting inspiration from the Divine, already in me. The solution is to do more Ho’oponopono cleansing.

PRINCIPLE # 7 EFFECTIVENESS IS THE MEASURE OF TRUTH
Joe Vitale wrote: “I knew intention (my plans) is a fool’s game, an ego’s toy. And that the real source of power is inspiration.”

I interpret the above as getting inspiration by doing the Ho’oponopono prayers and being led to review my books especially “Urban Shaman”.

Lately to ward off discouragement and frustration i have been studying again “Urban Shaman” which stresses self-esteem and self-confidence. Truly empowering!

My husband’s research for yet another syllabus for his teaching has inspired me to go back to my old books. One of these is: “Working with Angels, Fairies and Nature Spirits”. I had this book way back in 1998.

Dr William Bloom: “In Pythagoras’ mystical school in ancient Greece, there was a clear understanding of this paradoxical relationship between mathematical accuracy and poetic art.”

In my life it is between the accuracy of my learnings and what happens in my life. For all the careful monitoring of my health protocols and my consciousness wok, i find myself challenged, many times pushed to the edge of my patience.

“There is also reflected in the waves of beauty that emerges out of modern chaos theory which attempts to understand the apparently unpredictable behavior of systems governed by external forces.”

Of course, I am aware of the unpredictable behavior, the seemingly adverse stimuli in my vast environment which too often spoils my daily plans. Human reactions and responses can be most unsettling. Often I feel safer with my plants and music!

“There are fixed mathematical constraints at the base of the equation but they manifest and emerge chaotically. Yet out of the chaos emerge patterns of beauty.”

Joe Vitale helps me with an updated observation:
“I knew intention (my daily plans) is a fool’s game, an ego’s toy; and that the real source of power is inspiration”. (poetic art/God’s guidance).
“I (Joe Vitale) also know that agreeing to life is the great secret to happiness,  not controlling life”.

It will take a lifetime for me to learn not to be frustrated when life spoils my plans. But Ho’oponopono won’t allow me to give up.

More than ever I believe I was not banished. I was not exiled into the valley of tears. I believe I had a contract with God to come into this life to explore what it means to be made to the image and likeness of God. I recall how this was repeatedly taught to me during my Grade School years, through my High School years even during my College years!

I believe I won’t collide with anybody else as i journey, fully protected in my orbit. As long as i stay conscious of my divine pathway. as long as I stay connected with God.

I choose to stay connected with God via the Ho’oponopono way which empowers unlike soooo many formula prayers of religion which seemingly negates that I was made to the image and likeness of God. This may be judged as only my perception but I believe what i was taught!!

After recent domestic conflicts, I am convinced suffering and/or travailing to benefit either Emil or Anne is a ridiculous religious idea. God who is complete, all perfect is not pleased by my sufferings. This was another ridiculous idea of the pagans! Feeding humans to animals then even feeding humans to machines!

I go by my experiences. I have no intention of agonizing over dogmas I used to accept blindly. Not anymore. I no longer want to go into another crisis of Faith! I think I am too old for that.

I am what I believe:

Joe Vitale: “We are living in a belief-driven world. Whatever you believe, that belief will work.”
“It’ll get you through the day, at any rate.”
“It will FRAME your experience into perceptions that make sense to match your worldview, belief system. You’ll find a way to rationalize it and force it to fit”

Recently I wrote an essay about the Frames of my life.

“Urban Shaman”: “The world is what you think it is”
“This is the ability to operate in he world from the perspective of the principles (Shamanism) to see things from that viewpoint rather than in the ordinary way. we often call this operating at second level, instead of at first level.”

Gary Zukov:
“But a multisensory human has a more expanded perception. A multisensory human sees all experience as potential to grow spiritually.”

“Dr Hew Len’s work teaches us to let go and trust the divine while constantly cleaning all thoughts and experiences that surface on the way of hearing the divine. By the continuous work, we can clean the weeds of programs so we can better handle life with ease and grace.” (“Zero Limits” by Joe Vitale)

I have been cleaning my thoughts and experiences throughout the day for months now. )I used this Ho’oponopono cleaning years back but stopped.) But my challenges have been piling up. I used Shamanism, TAPPING exercises to supplement Ho’oponopono but my life simply has gone out of hand and taking its toll on my health.

I was inspired one afternoon to walk to the other end of our 38th floor to throw our trash. What a change! When I returned to our unit I had a different mood.

The change could be explained by what I learned from Dr Sarno. I learned that all pain is due to oxygen depletion. My mental state was PAIN indeed to me. My chaotic emotions must have constricted my muscles and nerves. The walk must have improved my circulation. My brain must have received ample supply of oxygen hence the mood change. I could think hopeful thoughts once more.

It took one sleepless night to jolt me out of my complacency. The noisy residents in the unit above ours defying routine action by the security guards hinted that I was not properly connected with Source. For months I was comfortable with the principles of shamanism guiding my pathway.

I was happy with my gratitude prayers and my invocation that my mind be opened. I was happy with being a multisensory being a la Gary Zukov specs.

My distress not to mention that of my husband led me to question my prevailing worldview. I felt my shamanism wasn’t connecting me enough to source.

Days before, I requested Dr Lipton to repost on Facebook his post about 5% and 95% of our programs. Then I thought of going back to Ho’oponopono to deal with my programs. I took solace in Ho’oponopono which cleansed my programs.

I regained much of my self-confidence. According to Joe Vitale’s version of Ho’oponopono it does not help to have a victim attitude in life! My belief that I left God freely to enter this life was strengthened. I still believe I was given all that was needed for my adventure here on earth.

I realized that unlike what the Ho’oponopono was teaching, I was relying too much on myself – my mind. I misinterpreted some principles of Shamanism.

Ho’oponopono does not believe in the power of intentions. It relies on INSPIRATION (intuitive guidance) from God. Ho’oponopono takes cognizance of how much damage our egos can inflict on our programs/beliefs.

I have slept soundly with Ho’oponopono (even if the residents upstairs are noisy). I have not given up Shamanism. I have just moved on in my spiritual journey a la Dr Page from personality-driven intentions to inspiration received in silence in a responsive mode and not in reactivity.