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Creativity

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The basic self governs he physical body, our emotions and the subconscious mind. It isn’t capable of rational thought. It simply does what it has been programmed to do by nature, by childhood messages and by adult learning.

Since it is childlike, the basic self is also impressed by authority – so it can be wise to read books or go to lectures which confirm what we already know, to reassure our basic self that our ideas are not so crazy after all. These paragraphs are from “Stepping into the Magic” by Gill Edwards.

The paragraphs must explain why at age 70 I find it hard to act on new beliefs especially when it concerns ethical behavior or just plain behavior. I need to draw inspiration and strength from my favorite authors like: Dr Christine Page, Michael Tamura, Sylvia Boorstein, Martha Beck, Mike Dooley, etc. I need their authority so I can give myself permission to change.

The basic self is more impressed by actions than by thoughts. By using our physical body, by taking action, we build a bridge between the inner and outer worlds – and open ourselves to change. Whatever you wish to do, it is crucial to take action – however small, however symbolic – to tell your basic self that you’re serious about it.

This is still from Gill Edwards
For my customized self care, I had to actually try several versions of a no slt, no fat diet to drastically lower ny blood pressure after another trip to the emergency room last January. I discovered how palatable my meals could be with apple cider vinegar. My health issues have made me creative and inventive.

Chutzpah

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“Chutzpah is  the Yiddish word for nerve… It takes real chutzpah for anyone to try to outline for another the components of a well-reasoned faith. faith is such a personal matter that what one person says can, at best only partially satisfy (or dissatisfy) another!”  These are precious words from Rabbi Belfour Brickner.

He continued:” Any faith worthy of a personal commitment needs to begin with a belief in oneself… This aphorism comes very close to saying it all. Until and unless one has a healthy ego, one will not only be unable to lead or guide others, but one will also be unable to make up one’s own mind and thus become easy prey for others who have strong opinions and even stronger convictions.”

Although I am approaching 71 years, coming from an educational system where conformity, obedience, and compliance were considered premium, my ego is still undergoing reconstructive rehab. In another essay I wrote why I rely heavily on my favorite authors to integrate my new beliefs and values.

For a meaningful life Victor Frankel had this to say: “The answer lay in the way each individual thought of himself or herself.”

“As long as they found some meaning in their day-to-day existence, as long as they looked forward to some small survival goal, they had a better chance of making it than those who lived only in the past.”

“His faith was pinioned on a sense of self: I am worthwhile. I have something to live for.”

According to Rabbi Brickner: “Frankel lived by a quotation from the philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche: He who has a why to live can bear with almost any how.”

The early first-century rabbis, according to Brickner interpreted the biblical phrase “Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself to mean You shall love your neighbor, he is yourself.

Having Received

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” When you think or speak thoughts of thanks what you’re really doing is thinking thoughts of having received or having been blessed.  When you think thoughts of having received those thoughts seek to come back to you experientially.    Your thoughts craft circumstances in which you will physically receive whatever you were giving thanks for, so that you can then experience that gratitude you previously sent out.”

In my life I am made to feel I am living out a story from my fairy-tale days when the character receives blessings after fulfilling conditions laid out by a powerful, external benign force. It may be a fairy godmother, a king, a wealthy donor etc. But I must contribute to the process via my thoughts and feelings.

There seems to be a universal law that: “will give you reason to experientially  feel the gratitude you first put out crafting occurrences and surprises that you may never even thought about but that were exactly the kinds of things that would manifest the feeling that you did think about.”

Infinite Possibilities by Dooley graphically explains manifestation thus: [Gratitude] works because of the thoughts and feelings it generates which can only be made physical by becoming the appropriate things and events of your own life.”

“You Are the Answer” by Tamura says: “Life gives moment by moment, step by step.”

Customized Rehab

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“Life is waiting for you to live it – your way. “Live” is a verb; it means to take action and that’s he point.” This is from Mike Dooley.

Walking with a cane since my mild stroke in May 2012 hasn’t given me permission to live a reclusive life. Once a week, though grudgingly I have to climb the stairs in the mall to go to mass at the chapel. On other days I have to climb the stairs to access the room where I get a massage from the blind. It’s as though the universe conspires to make me walk.

In the condo, I get my minimum daily exercise by throwing our trash into the garbage room and walking back to our unit. I usually experiment by varying the kind of steps I take to train my weak lft leg to carry the weight of my body.

The book “Urban Shaman” says: “Under the right stimulation – internal or external, mental or physical – the movement occurs and the memory is released.”

To explain: “experiential or learned memory is stored at one or more of many muscular levels.” I have regularly checked on my thoughts if only to discover what pay offs I may have stored in my memory for my not being able to walk normally. I keep on coaxing myself to reveal self sabotaging thoughts. More often now I do a lot of compassionate self-talk.

I have had acupuncture sessions which did me a lot of good. But then I developed high anxiety in anticipation of the insertion of at least 15 needles. I’m trying to convince myself to give acupuncture another chance.