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FROM INCARNATION TO RESURRECTION
In the 90s I went into severe depression. It may have been a case of dark nights of the soul. But I have awakened. I have no ambition to liken myself to Van Gogh not to Albert Camus.
Ever Lent I have chosen to view the Passion and the Resurrection from a different perspective. According to M. Tamura:
“Every time a soul is born into the earth, God dies giving that life, entering the material world to give that soul a body. Spirit must relinquish infinity for the finite, eternity for the terminal and immortality for the mortal.”
Like Rabbi Darfour, I don’t like anthropomorphizing God but I can’t help imagining how suffocating it must be for expansive Spirit to be contained within the confines of a body. For a lifetime, spirit must be limited to mundane thoughts; Spirit must be imprisoned in time and space; Spirit must contend with separation when it naturally thrives in oneness.
On oneness Esther Hicks has this to say:
“…Before your physical birth, you were vibrationally intertwined with Source, or with what humans oten call God but the full integration of you with God was such that there was no relationship between the two – because you wer all one.”
“Zero Limits” says :
“… you are created in the image of the divine. That means you were created void on one side of the coin and infinite. As soon as you are willing o let go of trash and be empty, then immediately what happens is inspiration fills your being and now you are born free.”
M. Tamura says:
“As we awaken our consciousness and grow in this field, so too our God-seed grows until we finally harvest the totality of divinity from this field.”
“In a sense, we resurrect God with our expanding awareness and love, little by little from our unconscious.”
Pearl’s personal Kitchen
No! I have not changed yet. I still do not cook nor do I intend to do so this year. Lately, I have realized that the colorful posts on Facebook about fancy diets are not practical for a senior citizen like me. I tried the avocado diet but after eating two small avocados in one day, I had elevated blood pressure.
I don’t like veggies so I was thrilled when at our favorite Chinese restaurant I Rediscovered the “Chicharo” beans of my high school days. Sadly, at our last consultation with our doctor I was told the beans have high uric acid content. Never mind if I took out the beans before eating the green bean. Relatedly, I learned from my doctor that ampalaya, one of the few tolerable vegetables for me is also high in uric acid.
Another discovery. Most of the “wonder concoctions” in capsule form bearing the disclaimer of “No therapeutic value” don’t affect my hypertension nor my blood sugar issues. The money spent on them are better used elsewhere.
Broccoli sauteed in oyster sauce and with beef. This is so tasty but again to my dismay it caused elevated blood pressure not because of the broccoli, according to our doctor, but most probably due to the beef and even due to the oyster sauce.
Throughout the three months that I embarked on a no salt, no fat diet I made my meals decent through the use of Apple Cider Vinegar. I would even sip water with a spoonful of cider vinegar every so often. Another disappointment. The deprivation hardly had an effect on my hypertension. My rice intake instead caused elevated blood sugar levels.
To add to my misery, our doctor reminded me that I would live to a ripe old age but with hypertension and blood sugar issues as companions. Both my husband and doctor recommend home cooking instead of eating ordered and delivered food.My goodness!
By the way, If I do decide on home cooking, it will be my loving husband who will cook. I will do the wahing and cleaning. Make no mistake. My husband is a great cook but i just don’t want to deal with the collateral damage in the kitchen each time he cooks.
Recently, I initially literally choked on my breakfast when I saw my husband preparing a whole bowl of leafy vegetables (Kangkong) for me. What a big bowlful! To my surprise I consumed everything, even without cider vinegar.
One more good news. I discovered that eating two raw ( sab-a) bananas could bring me to the toilet in 30 minutes. This is a consolation because our doctor does not allow my favorite 3 in 1 coffee anymore. He told me my favorite type of coffee is not meant for senior citizens much less for somebody with blood sugar issues like me.
” But when we welcome what we want most to avoid, we evoke not a story, not caught in the past, not some old image of ourselves.”
“We evoke divinity itself. And in doing so we can hold emptiness, old hurts, fear in our cupped hands and behold our missing hearts.” The quotations are from “Women, Food, God”
Compassion for the Self
It may be because of my scoliosis.I meditate better when my back is flat in bed than when I sit according to the traditional meditation posture. I don’t have to waste time dealing with aches and other distracting stimuli that call attention to body care.
Many meditation teachers will not approve of my chosen posture for meditation but it has worked for me. My mind is disciplined enough not to fall asleep. Rather late but thank god for the realization that:
“We are taught by unspoken rules that govern our society that the way to acceptance is to blend with others, to fit in, to mold ourselves to the pattern of normality.”
“This is necessary to establish stability in a group.”
Now that I have formally retired from the academe I know :”It is hard emotional work to be ourselves when we need to defy conventional rules to be who we honestly are.” This is from “The Artist’s Way”
My meditation scheme works for me because of what I have learned from the “Urban Shaman” that : “Inspiration and solutions to problems that may be unrelated to what you have are focusing on often break through. This is also principally an effect of relaxation plus previous intent or desire.”
Creativity
The basic self governs he physical body, our emotions and the subconscious mind. It isn’t capable of rational thought. It simply does what it has been programmed to do by nature, by childhood messages and by adult learning.
Since it is childlike, the basic self is also impressed by authority – so it can be wise to read books or go to lectures which confirm what we already know, to reassure our basic self that our ideas are not so crazy after all. These paragraphs are from “Stepping into the Magic” by Gill Edwards.
The paragraphs must explain why at age 70 I find it hard to act on new beliefs especially when it concerns ethical behavior or just plain behavior. I need to draw inspiration and strength from my favorite authors like: Dr Christine Page, Michael Tamura, Sylvia Boorstein, Martha Beck, Mike Dooley, etc. I need their authority so I can give myself permission to change.
The basic self is more impressed by actions than by thoughts. By using our physical body, by taking action, we build a bridge between the inner and outer worlds – and open ourselves to change. Whatever you wish to do, it is crucial to take action – however small, however symbolic – to tell your basic self that you’re serious about it.
This is still from Gill Edwards
For my customized self care, I had to actually try several versions of a no slt, no fat diet to drastically lower ny blood pressure after another trip to the emergency room last January. I discovered how palatable my meals could be with apple cider vinegar. My health issues have made me creative and inventive.