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My more than 3 years fascination with Buddhist readings from both western and eastern authors have helped me to accept the importance of Being.  But my Monkey Mind plus my many books on business management tear me apart. Business management books warp my thoughts about time. They urge me to return to the past and mine it of lessons till I lose track of the NOW. The familiarity of the past makes me comfortable with it including some unpleasant thoughts. The future also vies for attention. It is as though the NOW can wait while I obsess with the future. I keep on forgetting that over a thousand times at least what I painstakingly plan for don’t happen anyway.

I live in the frantic world. “How can I live in the moment.” I often question when I’m confused or anxious. “ It’s good to live in the NOW provided there are no bills to be paid. How can I live in the NOW when every so often I have to deal with our one and only daughter living in a different time zone? How can I live in the NOW when my husband thinks differently daily depending on which university he goes for the day. Today he is CSR or CSI personified. The next day he can be reached only if I agree with his research terms and designs. Still another day it is education tailored to his Chinese, Vietnamese, Iranian etc. students.” Continue reading →