For quite some time, I was guided by the laws of the universe and by the law of attraction. I analyzed everything. Naturally I was in for a lot of frustrations. There were just too many circumstances to deal with and fast changing at that. Too many stimuli to manage.

I wanted to control everything. I felt deeply for issues like street children, especially those on our street, endangering themselves by running after taxi cabs. I was always upset by the traffic. I wanted order. I wanted to control the buses and the tricycles.

I was forever worried about our daughter in London; I was worried about the heavy schedules of my husband; I was worried for my health.

Eventually, I realized I had to be kinder to myself. So, I tried the Ho’oponopono way of life. It stopped me from blaming people, things and events. I constantly checked my thoughts for negativity. But I felt I was missing out on the joys of life. I drew inspiration from Dr. Page, Esther Hicks, Michael Tamura, Neale Walsh, Rabbi Darfour, Wayne Dyer, George Sison, Tato Malay, Gil Edwards etc.

Lately I have been seeking solace in Joyce Meyer’s “Living Courageously”. She wrote:
“… I believe that we can choose to believe what we want to believe, so why not believe something that will benefit you?”

“If I base God’s love on circumstance, one day it appears He loves me and then the next it may seem He doesn’t. But when I receive it by Faith, it is always mine and can never be taken away from me unless I decide to let it go…”

I have found peace in the writings of Joyce Meyer. She writes of things closest to the religion I grew up in.