April 19 Thursday. I had a very hard day, so bad I ended having a big headace in the evening. In our six years of happy living in our condo, this was the first time i encountered an incredible disaster with one of the maintenance staff.

My goodness! Now I sadly realize the interpretation of a janitor’s job is to simply throw trash. For hours I waited for a janitress we had known for years. Eventually I got tired of waiting and called the lobby to send a substitute.

Luckily, even in my handicapped state i was able to take inside our unit some of the things brought out for cleaning. I was able to bring inside several carpets of different sizes. Naturally I got very tired.I rested for a while. By the time i opened our door again I was shocked. Everything had disappeared.

I had to awaken my husband who needed badly his siesta. He was able to salvage from the trash room, including my respectable mattress mind you not the kapok style!

Just minutes ago, I received from Admin an explanatory letter written by the janitor. He must have been so scared during the investigation.
But I can’t believe he was not trained to knock at the door before disposing of things. Now I know I think differently.

In London in 2014 a friend of our daughter told me I am not the target market USUALLY. Now I feel I am not even included in the big data )Common culture) as mentioned in “Homo Deus” by Yuval Hoah Harari.

So I seek solace from Sylvia Boorstein. I share her view of “God, one philosophical than mystical more emphasizing faith in the perfectability of people than the perfection of a separate god.” (actually this is the view of some modern Jews as found in one of Sylvia’s books).

Also: “Buddhist view of the radical, compassionate essence of the natural mind.”

Plus: “I don’t give up Buddhism because it’s the way in which I understand my life.’
“I know the tendency of struggle in the mind comes from taking one’s own story personally rather than seeing it as part of the great unfolding of cosmic drama.”

I just keep on forgetting what I have learned from SYLVIA BOORSTEIN.