Your personal paradigm reflects not only your culture, family and life experiences but the ways that you, because of your unique temperament, have interpreted and responded to your environment. Our openness to what is new affects our view of the world.

For years I have been going to Sunday Mass for compliance. I have been afraid of the wrath of God so I have been going to Sunday Mass. But Sunday Mass at Novena Church in Singapore this September was an experience. It was inconvenient to climb some steps with my cane to enter the church but the usherettes were so caring and they  warmed my heart.

The people waiting for Mass to start were reverent enough, so unlike the conditions in Manila churches. The giant screen on top of the altar made sure the people knew what was going on.

Even the homily was short enough. I must have been primed. When a second collection was announced I didn’t bristle.

Throughout the Mass I wasn’t inclined to recite my litany of petitions. I listened to the priest and the responses of the faithful. I felt God’s presence. “Be still and know that I am god.”

When you are in a state of fear, worry, anger or frustration, chances are you will attract the energy that matches the specific negative state you are in. I learned this the hard way after being disappointed several times with my efforts to implement what I learned from “The Secret”.

“The Vortex” by Esther and Jerry Hicks has helped me refine the process of manifesting my desires. Martha Beck has offered the most relevant tips along with Joe Vitale in “Zero Limits”.Laura Bushnel has been the main force in guiding me out of the worry mode with her insight that worry is negative prayer.

During the two days of rains and floods I vented my frustrations on Facebook. was awakened by the Love in Action website. I was told to believe that no matter [what] happens by way of weather events, you and your loved [ones] are always safe and protected.

According to the Hicks couple:control over the way you feel – over your responses to things, over your response to others or your response to situations- is not only the key to your consistent happiness but to everything you you desire as well.

Problems according to Joe Vitale are memories replaying. Memories are programs that aren’t just yours. They are shared. The way to release the memory is to send love to the divinity. Divinity hears and responds but in the way best for all, at the time right for all.

This is disturbing to me. I am such an introvert struggling with social concerns and responsibilities. I don’t seem to have the energy not the taste for minding the business of others except of course the business of our daughter and my husband.

As a compromise, I have been subscribing to the Hawaiian healing strategy of Ho’oponopono which is comfortably distant for me. I feel safe with the constant repetitions of: “I’m sorry. I love you. I thank you.” Yet I feel I’m splitting myself.

For years I have refused to say the rosary because I didn’t relish repeating the same prayers. Yet here I am repeating the Ho’oponopono requests.
According to Vitale, a program is like a belief. When we notice it in others that’s a sure sign the program is also in our system. So, you have to neutralize the program with Ho’oponopono requests to go back to the zero state where divinity inspires.

Using the law of pragmatism, I rely on Joe Vitale’s scheme because it has worked for me countless times from locating missing things, to helping me with my anxieties over my husband and our daughter

     I have been analyzing literary pieces for so many years, dedicated to the cause and effect paradigm. My logical mind has been constantly questioning: why? Expectations were held sacred, more sacrosanct than the flow. Surprises were not honored. Science rather than Faith ruled my life.

Not anymore! At 70 years, I often feel challenged by everything contrary to what I planned. It is as though the Law of perversity rules my life now. But I have awakened. I don’t allow disappointments to define me.

There are countless inspirational and colorful posts in my newsfeeds on Facebook any time of the day or night. They soften the blow when I am dealt with irritants like text messages from those who offer loans. Recently, I had to turn off my celphone for a while to stop a certain Cherry from sending me the same message all of six times!

I wonder if my subconscious attracted this to my life. The day before I searched for pictures of cherries on Facebook. I expected to get pictures I saw in the past from “Radiant Clicks”, “Nostalgia”, etc. Amusing! The search resulted in wedding pictures of one named Cherry.

Google apparently is more intelligent. My subconscious must be attracted to Facebook, sending me an irritant via a certain Cherry.
What I resist, persists.

“What happens in your life is not your fault, but it is your responsibility,” so said Joe Vitale in his book “Zero Limits”. Lately I have had problems with a lobby guard on OJT at our building. I have also been bothered with food and water being delivered by mistake to our unit.

I can’t blame anyone or anything for my current reality. Rational thinking can’t do much. It is frustrating to analyze. The intellect will try to establish cause and effect. However, the intellect working alone can’t solve problems because it only manages.

According to Vitale, “All you can do is take responsibility for it which means accept it, own it and love it.”
“Acknowledge that something without you knowing what it is – has gotten into your body/mind system. You have no idea how it got there. You don’t need to know.”

The answer according to M. Tamura is to trust the divine to take care of you. When you let go of your ego and the ego’s desires you allow something better to guide you: the Divine.