After almost 2 years of serious Ho’oponopono, I have realized how pervasive and persistent memories can be, truly like “monkey mind” – the reality of Original Sin. I used to resent Adam and Eve. But after experiencing the difficulty of cleansing memories a la Joe Vitale”s Ho’oponopono, I realize how important it is for me to claim 100% responsibility for my life.

I cling to God for doing what I can’t do, but in love and full trust. During these years I have personally experienced God’s abiding presence no matter what state I am in. He has truly become the god of love, no longer the angry, old man of the old Testament. I give credit to Neale Walsch for helping me to imagine a God who in reality is in me. aside from Neale Walsch, I went on even when I had misgivings about God’s love through the books of Michael Tamura and Mike Dooley.

This certainly did not come about instantly a la “The Secret”. This did not come about from mechanical saying of the rosary much less novenas.

I believe the masses that I attended even when I did not feel like going, the Eucharist and the sacraments must have helped me. To a great extent my prayer warriors among the dead must have helped me.

I know I have yet to arrive at my destination, but from now on it will be cruising rather than struggling.

The following attempts at individuation can be devastating when viewed from the logical perspective:
Urban Shaman:
…all meanings are made up and absolute truth is whatever you decide it is….
the meaning of experience depends on your interpretation of it, or your decision to accept someone else’s interpretation and the decision to accept a basic assumption is also arbitrary.

I almost hate to tell you this- things rarely go according to plan

Mike Dooley offers a consoling thought:
…whenever [emotions] are unpleasant, they serve as a reminder that our present perception is not based in truth but on misinterpretation of truth

Esther Hicks says: Before your physical birth, you were vibrationally intertwined with Source, or with what humans often call God, but the full integration of you with God was such that there was no relationship between the two – because you were all one.

Martha Beck:… the subjective awareness that there is no separatio between me and anything else in the universe. According to Lynne MCtaggart, things once in contact remain in contact through all space and time.
Quantum entanglement has been interpreted as : we are communicating with everything and everything is communicating with us, all the time.

You Are the Answer
You will discover that there is only one space to be who you are, you will discover that there is only one relationship: the one between you and your all giving Creator

My favorite authors are my life coaches. Ester Hicks and Bette Middler are assertive , in fact I can sense a quiet impatience in them towards people who don’t go for what they deserve in life. Bette Middler , I suppose is not an author but I learn from her posts on Facebook.

Lyn Grabhorn pokes fun at herself almost like Ellen de Generes and teaches how powerful consciousness is.
Gill Edwards and Laura Bushnell advocate the pathway of joy. Why struggle? Why be a martyr?

Sylvia Boorstein was introduced to me through her book “Happiness Is an Inside Job”. Since then I have worked on my inner life and have been more compassionate with myself.

Neale Walsch and Michael Dooley are so positive. In fact Walsch makes me wonder if there is truly evil in the world. Michael Dooley puts so much premium on our thoughts.

Michael Tamura like Joe Vitale harps on our divinity. Like Vitale, Tamura believes everything is already in us.
But the most comprehensive teacher for me is Dr. Christine Page who covers health, wealth, the present, the past and the future etc.
Rabbi Darfour has answered so many of my questions even those which nuns and priests would just want me to accept in faith.

Although I no longer buy books I get messages from Dr. Orloff via Facebook.   It is the same case with Cheryl Richardson who taught me to pay attention to what the universe teaches me lest the lessons be repeated till I learn.

Dr Weil’s message is to to adjust because I live in an uncertain world.
Debbie Ford lives on on Facebook through her foundation that faithfully posts guidance for living.
Huffington is a favorite  in helping me with my fears.

My wish is that before I die, I can read a book written by Angelina Jolie regarding her life experiences – doing a lot of good without religion and without her mother who according to her was her main influence.

Apparently this is an upsetting statement from “Zero Limits” : “You have to give up the idea that people do things for you. They do things for themselves.”

“Joys of Much Too Much” has something similar: “Over the years I’ve learned as both an employer and a job seeker that you can presume nothing nor can you assume that what you think is obvious appears that way to the rest of the world. It rarely does.”

Dooley in “Infinite Possibilities” says: “We live lives that are so personal and individual.”

“Our lives are far more personal, precious and unique, than we’ve been taught and this is because they e fr more a product of how and what we think than they are of evolution or destiny.”

“It’s far more accurate to think that we all sit alone in our own movie theaters. Apart from life’s unchanging principles, we all live by different rules and truths based upon different beliefs.”

But Esther Hicks, Martha Beck and Neale Walsch would counter by saying that in truth we are all one.

So in my life, I use the Ho’oponopono strategy. I no longer try to fix everything. I trust the Divine in me to accomplish what i can’t.

Let’s listen to Martha Beck: “All of us have been taught to make things happen in the physical world. We know what it takes: setting goals, rolling up our sleeves, putting pleasure aside, and working, working, working, working, working. Then it helps if we work harder. Often we need others to help us work, so we must work to find them and work to motivate them with physical rewards (food,money, companionship,
approval) and?or physical punishment (pink slips, prison, breakups, criticism).

All of this is hard. It demands much time and effort from both the body and the calculating mind. As Genesis reminds us: ‘ In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it wast thou taken for dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return’. ”

Somber statements. And to make matters worse Ms Beck had to use archaic language to quote the Bible. Lucky for me, several of my favorite books counter the Statements of M. Beck.

“Blood, sweat and tears aren’t what it takes to make real change. Instead it’s your imagination, beliefs and expectations that draw you into action, circumstances and coincidences that make dreams manifest and inevitable.” Mike Dooley’s “Infinite Possibilities” speaks as though there are no obstacles just possibilities.

“You Are the Answer by M Tamura explains obstacles thus: “When we are in resistance, we give our power away to the very object of our resistance.”

“Working on Yourself Doesn’t Work” says: “If you resist something, at best you narrowly define yourself against the thing you are resisting, at worst you become just like the very thing you resist.”

I will end this musing on a positive note: by praying according to the “Artist’s Recovery” : Teach me to trust that I deserve joyfully and peacefully to be my creative self as an act of worship to you.”