I thank God that i am as yet not a finished product! I still have many dreams. I still dream of living in a country where religion does not determine significantly the lives of people. Why not live according to spiritual values where each one follows his pathway back to Source.

I dream of being able to walk comfortably even with a cane . i would like to take long walk along tree-lined streets the way i did in Sydney in the early 2000s. where cars really stop to allow pedestrians, young or old to cross.

I would like to walk leisurely to the supermarket, alone, and back passing by friendly shops including a quaint bookstore which lends eyeglasses! This was Sydney in the early 2000s.

I dream of being able to meet personally Serge Kahili King and discuss the 7 principles of Urban Shamanism.

I dream …

I don’t want anybody to go through the agony I went through lately. For around 4 or 5 days I experienced horrible ocular migraines. I have not been experiencing such since last October. But then it lasted for only a few minutes.

For all my consciousness work I have been doing. For all the essays about my being my best doctor. For all the essays i have been writing about living my own pathway and not believing that this is a valley of tears. and to think that my last essay was on TRANSMUTATION of PAIN.

I felt my whole world was crashing on me. The very first two days were excruciating since I refuse to take painkillers because my internet research deemed all painkillers as a no no to hypertensives. and indeed my BP rose even without the painkillers.

I noticed my PAIN TRANSMUTATION protocol was blessing our daughter in Mumbai. Emil was getting more and more projects and teaching loads. My plants were growing wild with fertilizers produced by my TRANSMUTING MIND. But why was I myself so challenged health-wise?

I was tempted to drop the whole spirituality pathway via my non religious worldview, the learnings from Dr Lipton, Gary Zukov, Mike Dooley , Neale Walsch etc.

But then when I went to Facebook I was greeted by posts of Neale Walsch and Mike Dooley which spoke to me. I was affirmed.

So I am seeing an eye doctor soonest.

So I am back to listening and watching tapes like: “Try Yourself/ Miracle Happens within a minute get good news (There are at least 3 versions).

I feel affirmed by the post of Neale Walsch displayed along with this essay. Dr Page had a similar statement long ago.

It is my belief that Source equipped me with everything I would need in this journey. I was not banished to this valley of tears; I don’t consider this life as an exile to the valley of tears.

I can’t understand why religion still teaches that we have to look up to the heavens to solve our problems.
Instead I believe I must work to open my eyes and see all the blessing available for me. I must awaken to the abundance; I must awaken to tame my fears, I must awaken to defy negative thoughts of unworthiness.

God does not need to be worshiped. God is complete and does not need anything nor anybody. I must change what I learned that God has to be appeased. (How pagan!)

I don’t need to be like the pagans offering sacrifices, even human sacrifices???!!!! to merit God’s love and blessings.

What I need is to be selfish not selfless as religion taught me. The airline rule of taking care of self first is practical. It empowers me to do good and love others.

My basic assumption is that I was not banished to this earth, this valley of tears1 i believe i chose to come into this life, that I was fully equipped by Source for my specific journey.

I also believe that God/Source does not need to be appeased the way the god or gods of the pagans had to be.

I am turning 75 in May but I cannot fully remember what I was equipped with. This is the mystery I choose to still believe in and not the mysteries imposed by the church!

I am grateful for the learnings from Dr Christine Page, Dr Lipton, Gary Zukov, Rabbi Darfour, Maria Nemeth,etc but I want to simplify my life.

I have decided to simply adopt the 7 principles of Urban Shamanism to guide me henceforth.

I want to simplify my life and not get overwhelmed the way I was in the 90s. In the 90s I identified myself as an HSP (highly sensitive personality) as categorized by Dr Elaine Aron. I wonder if this term still exists in the psychological realm.

The 7 Principles:
1. The world is what you think it is.
2. There are no limits.
3. Energy flows where attention goes.
4. Now is the moment of power.
5. to love is to be happy with.
6. All power comes from within.

I would like to end this essay with an apt paraphrase of Rumi’s wise saying: When I was younger, wanting to be clever I aimed to change everybody. Now hat I have grown in wisdom, i know I can only Change MYSELF.

7. Effectiveness is the measure of truth.

I wrote in a previous essay that to prevent myself from getting overwhelmed I have decided to simplify my life in 2018 by using the 7 principles of urban shamanism ala Serge kahili King. This is not the animistic religion of Northern Asia. Urban shamanism is a craft, a collection of skills and not a religion.

One of my favorite principles is the 7th:
Effectiveness is the measure of truth. There is always another way to do everything.

For its effectiveness my diet has consisted mainly of dory fish and chicken. I used to subsist on salmon belly till the last two months of 2017 when salmon was not available in the market according to a neighborhood “suki” who cooks my meals according to specs and delivers it to our condo.

Lately my favorite meal is chopsuey with ingredients chosen by me. I have chosen to feast on Kiwi and Pomelo. however, since December the white Pomelo from China has been a problem It is bigger than the pink ones from Davao but not as juicy. Besides the white Pomelo has abnormal wedges inside; very small ones grow on top of normal wedges. Because the white Pomelo has abnormal wedges the white skin of the tiny wedges stick to the normal wedges and give them a tart taste.

I keep myself healthy not through mainstream medicine from BIG PHARMA but from herbal alternatives that have worked for me.

Of course my cure-all is the magnesium of Dr Jean Netario Cruz.

I have my own breathing exercises focusing on the movements of my jaw, shoulders, stomach and legs.

I use tapes available from YouTube:
Pain Remover 956 Hz
Activation of the Vagus Nerve
finger Positions

I find daily joys through my potted plants which connect me with Source. I get energized through music (mostly piano) available through YouTube.