Category Archives: Social Conditioning

Social Conditioning

PRAYERS

I pray day and night. I pray often everyday. Yet I cannot decode the secret on answered prayers till now.

I pray BTS. Believe, Trust nd surrender. But I still get anxious. I am anxious even about my meals which are regularly scheduled.

I am anxious about what kind of omelet will be served for breakfast and dinner. I am even more anxious about what will be served for lunch cause my lunch varies from day to day.

Sometimes I am lucky to be served Jollibee spaghetti!

My Reality at 80

I pray night and day. I lie in bed day and night. I dream even during daytime. When I am in bed oftentimes I have a hard time differentiating reality from my dreams.

Sadly I often dream I don’t have money. Sometimes I don’t have money for transportation. Other times its money to pay for what I bought. Other times it is to pay my share for a school event,

In my dream she was in all black. Formal attire. She was waiting to ride a jeepney. How ridiculous!

Senior Moments

Thank you Rene Manalo for 2 more books by Fr Orbos. I am amazed at how Fr Orbos understands the doubts, questions and fears of the elderly. Of course Fr Orbos is much younger than I am. But how he feels for us is amazing. He is not judgmental. He uplifts.Thank God for Fr Oebos teaching me to focus on God instead of the negative forces around me.

Incidentally Fr Orbos wrote about the Preface of the Mass. “lift up our hearts. My goodness. I went to daily Mass before I retired for Many years but I did not hear the preface.

But it is never too late. In my prayers which I do night and day I will now lift everything to God.

Senior moments when dining out. When I choose food from a menu I must first consult our caregiver if the food is allowed. I must not complain. Hundreds do not have food at all. Many do not even have a choice.

Senior moments on the 7th floor of rand Towers. Lyra who is not yet two is fascinated by my wheelchair and would rather touch it than do mano. Ello who is only ten moths old is more appreciative. He even mumbles and laughs as he tugs at my wheelchair.

Senior prinilege at the lobby of the Grand Towers. When the guard on duty is a member of theoriginal batc I get escorted into the elevator. What a blessing. God bless the guards.