Martha Beck: “All of us have been taught to make things happen in the physical world. we know what it takes: setting goals, rolling up our sleeves, putting pleasure aside, and working, working, working, working, working.”
“Then it helps if we work harder.”

Joe Vitale: “I also know that agreeing to life is the great secret to happiness, not controlling life.”
“Too many people, myself included, were visualizing and affirming in order to manipulate the world.”
“I now know that isn’t necessary. You’re better off going with the flow while constantly cleaning whatever comes up.”

So I have to unlearn: ‘No pain, no gain.’

So I distrust 5yr development plans. I don’t even set goals for my daily life – not anymore.

Martha Beck: “As you drop your mental stories and watch your own feelings, you’ll notice that the gripping desperation of attachment is something you can release.”

Dr Christine Page: “Come to terms with the situation and to accept that this is ‘ the way things are’ and that such acceptance releases the individual to move forward even though the steps may be faltering at first.”

Gary Zukov: “But a multisensory human has a more expanded perception. A multisensory human sees all experience as potential to grow spiritually.”

To prevent my mind from awakening more memories/programs i have switched to the Spanish version of the Ho’oponopono prayer. I understand Spanish but I think in English so for the time being the Spanish version helps me.

Dr Christine Page wrote: “It is only when our soul is fully incarnate within the physical body and is expressed through the base chakra  that we reach full understanding of our place in the greater plan.”

When my BP  soared and my stomach ached awfully, I got nervous  initially. I resorted to lots of Magnesium, Cider vinegar and WAKI pen application. I took 2 tablets of my maintenance medicine but my BP was still high.

I refused to call my husband then attending a late Christmas party as January 6. I resolved  not  to go to the hospital. I stayed firm in my conviction that I am my best doctor. Instead I talked a lot to my prayer warriors among the dead.

When my husband came home, I made sure i acted normal. I applied an ointment he won at a raffle. I drank Turmeric. another prize from the raffle.

By then the Magnesium had caused me to have LBM. I simply endured my stomach pains.
In he morning, after i received ugly text messages from our daughter who had a splitting headache etc., I knew my psyche was out of kilter. It definitely knew the problems of our daughter AHEAD of the text messages. This has happened between my daughter and myself countless of times.

I reached some understanding of my place in the general plan. I was meant to remind our daughter of doing consciousness work; to believe in her divinity; to stop worrying about BREXIT; to stop pining fr alone time etc.

I also understand my role in the context of the pathway of my husband. Never to dwell in his spurts of bad temper and impatience. He had bouts lately. i forgot what our Daughter and i experienced many years back when we crossed him! The story has become part of the family lore!

My husband is by template a genial extrovert but he becomes an ogre when his pathway is crossed. only he knows when he has had enough. It may even be a petty incident.

Alan Seale wisely wrote: “Everyone must find his/her own path.”

Dr Page wrote: “External conditions and other people cannot prevent us reaching wholeness and expressing our Inner Being unless on some level they do so with our blessings.

I have more consciousness work to do. INDEED!

God does not require any exchange for blessings. I have been feeling unworthy for yers. I was trained to beg for blessings. Little did I know that God has been waiting to gladly give, the way the Father of the Prodigal Son rushed to meet his returning son.

From “Mindfulness Yoga” : Our life is shaped by our mind; all actions are led by mind, created by mind.”

“Happiness follows a skillful thought as surely as one’s shadow.”

Gill Edwards wrote: “We always get what we want (Is she writing about the 4th dimension?), so if you are not creating it, you must be blocking it.”

This is why the Law of Attraction has caused me to blame myself each time I got challenges. Yet Joe Vitale’s Ho’oponopono never allows blaming.
I keep swinging to my old limiting beliefs!
Edwards offered tips:
“You need to clarify what stands in the way:
negative beliefs or attitudes
fears and doubts
anger and resentment
guilt
feeling undeserving
or
payoffs such as self-pity, punishing others, feeling better than others or avoiding responsibility.

GOODNESS! The list seems to say only the Dalai Lama can get his desires.
Edwards continued: “What are the excuses you give yourself?”
At this point I choose not to be further frustrated. I choose to listen to M Tamura: “Instead of insisting that we get what we want, how we want it and when and where, by being compassionate we allow our whole process of receiving to develop in its own way and time.”

But as always I choose Boorstein. She wrote:
“There are all sorts of things I don’t like. And in response to what I find unpleasant, I often feel dismayed or impatient or annoyed or disappointed or grieved.”
“What I try to do is keep my mind from fighting with my experience, confusing and isoating itself in self-centered despair.”
“…the mind’s acceptance of the situation, free to allow space for new possibilities to come into view.”