As long as there are some who think fearful thoughts of lack, of warfare, of unforgiveness of unworthiness, etc the kingdom of God/light cannot manifest. Examine the prayers of various religions. Chances are they are based on unworthiness. God who is all love and all good wants to give but man insists he is unworthy. Man from his level of unworthiness cannot access the blessings that are from a different level of consciousness.

Christians believe that man has been redeemed by Jesus but stubbornly behave as though redemption never happened.
Personally, I went through a lot of learnings the hard way during this Christmas season. I had all types of oppressions with communication. My cellphone went crazy. I had to go to the Globe office twice last December. It was a repair shop at the mall that finally fixed my phone this January.

The Internet has been horribly slow. (It still is). The Internet is my only link to our daughter in the UK and lately in France. I have been feeling as though nothing good could be accessed. Luckily I bought Joyce Meyer’s book “Living Courageously”. It confirmed that fears and negativity won’t allow access to blessings.

I am a disciple of Einstein in the sense that I believe no problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that produced it. I have been personally applying this when I pray over problems. I consciously go to a higher level by invoking my divinity. I remind myself that I am made to the image and likeness of God. I go beyond my fears and feelings of unworthiness. Often this is not easy after all the years of being reminded I am but a poor sinner. I recite the Ho’oponopono formula over and over again to heal the erroneous programs running in my consciousness. This season when the Internet is horribly slow, I don’t play the cleansing melodies but simply recite the “I am sorry. Please forgive me…” cleansing statements.

Learning from Dr. Christine Page how my personality (thoughts, emotions, and the physical world) limits me , I surrender to Source who is almighty. I submit to the all-knowing God already in me. More often than not God answers my prayers according to his plan. Lately I have experienced many oppressions but with better understanding attained by stillness and silence instead of complaining I have been blessed with far better circumstances, superior to what I prayed for.

Funny how images of Job, of the Angelus prayer etc. cruise along my mind. I m not a fan of the Bible nor of formula prayers. I have found peace in the images now that I have a positive interpretation of the God experience thanks to Bro. Ebner, George Sison, Tato Malay, Esther Hicks, Wayne Dyer, Joyce Meyer etc.

“Wherever you go, go with all your heart.” I interpret the quotation as not splitting my mind-body connection. What I choose as an intention can manifest if I don’t second guess myself. If I find it hard to visualize my intention, I will use the “as if” strategy. I simply must “Faith it” meantime. I will behave as though I already have what I want to manifest.

Esther Hicks said something about our losing focus enroute to manifestation through vacillating emotions. So we fail to manifest our intention.

Clearly this is a case of what Einstein considers a problem not being solved at the same level from which it emanated. Now I realize the importance of expanding the consciousness

But in our family of three, I realize that my preferences are different from those of my husband and those of our daughter. My preferences are similar to my husband’s but not with our daughter’s.

Perhaps this explains why lately we have been agonizing about a specific issue. Our daughter and I have become emotional over our differences but I thank God we are still communicating.
Then I have been inspired to go the Ho’oponopono way. When I pray I surrender my preferences to Divinity who knows, who sees the bigger picture. I trust the comprehensive Ho’oponopono prayer will take our differences and oen our hearts to accept the greater good.

For almost a week, I was indisposed. Blame it on “overload” or indigestion. Blame it on poor resistance to infection. To me, the physical reasons are no as important as the psychospirituality or the metaphysical explanations

Dr Christine Page talks about: “the ability to sift through the myriad of thoughts which flow, often unconsciously, through our mind, and retain those which can realistically bear fruit, whilst destroying the rest”.

In my case this was what happened: “the individual’s mind becomes so overwhelmed with all manner of thoughts with little discrimination”.
“…the stomach… will often show signs of ‘overload’  (indigestion).

Dr Christine Page wrote about anxiety and an imbalance of the immune system as well as inflammatory bowel ailments.
She continued: “from a psychological point of view, these individuals are sensitive with a highly developed intuitive and creative side to their nature (even though this may not have been given the space to be expressed)

I realized how much has been left unexpressed after a very stimulating lunch discussion with my husband, Tato Malay, Noel Hornilla and Marito Platon last September 21.

Relatedly George Sison wrote in a book given by Tato Malay:
“Our orientation is to stress what we don’t like…. the Bible says it succinctly:resist not evil. What you resist stays in your mind, and that is what you will get”.

“Everything in your life is what you have asked for, though not consciously. Figuratively speaking, you subconsciously chose to write the story of your life based on the lessons you have to learn in this lifetime. ”

The above together with what I have learned from Joe Vitale’s “Zero Limits” have shown me the responsibility I have for my own life. I needed the dis-ease to stop and go inside myself to rediscover my God in me.