“Co-creating at Its Best” said: “It really is your choice. But most people , when they think of some illnesses, believe that they are without choice. And that is why you feel fear.”

I recall how my own doctor told me I can’t ever walk normally again. Of course I did not believe him.

“you feel fear because you are thinking in opposition to the way Source is viewing your situation. Fear is just the way you feel when you have a different opinion from Source.”

I felt liberated from my fears the very first time I met Jean Netario Cruz. She was so confident I wold walk again without a cane.

“Because of your attention upon (Jean) You found a way of allowing the energy that was there for you all along to be received by you.”

“(She) did not receive the energy and assert it at you. You don’t need someone to assert healing energy.”
“You all have access to that energy.”
“But (she) helped you to expect it.”
“By virtue of what you have heard about (her) and what you know of (her) your expectations shifted so that fear was not there. And in the absence of that fear caused by your focusing upon (her), the healing took place.

After almost a year of Jean’s magnesium spray I still walk with a cane but the muscular pains on my shoulders and thighs have disappeared.

I have found new uses for magnesium: for the annoying ringing on my left ear. The many researches in the Internet have not offered any relief but days ago I experimented. I spayed on my left ear. After a few minutes the noise disappeared. What a miracle for me!.

For almost 3 years now I have been having body massage regularly. It has helped my circulation as well as my digestion. It has even helped to erase the ringing on my left ear which occurs once in a while.
The massage has relieved me of shoulder and upper arms aches and pains. When these recur occasionally , most often than not, due to wrong posture while sleeping I use the magnesium spray of Mary Jean Netario Cruz and after a few minutes the aches disappear.

Lately I have come across another regimen. While still in bed I do deliberate breathing with my left hand resting on the wall beh

ind my bed. I consciously breathe in blessings and breathe out positive thoughts so as not to pollute the environment with negative energy. I imagine I am being cleansed of toxicity.

I raise my left hand to activate the passages that may have been damaged by the very small blood clot I had when I had a mild stroke in 2012. At first I would count breaths. Eventually, I combined my breathing exercise with prayer- not traditional formula prayers, mind you. I sometimes do the Ho’oponopono, other times my own personal prayers. I particularly avoid saying prayers that condemn me to a “valley of tears” and repeating my unworthiness of the blessings I seek. Instead I make sure my prayers are joyful nd abundant.

I check my thoughts with inspiration from Joyce Meyer, Esther Hicks, Wayne Dyer, Neale Walsch, and of course George Sison and Tato Malay etc

For quite some time, I was guided by the laws of the universe and by the law of attraction. I analyzed everything. Naturally I was in for a lot of frustrations. There were just too many circumstances to deal with and fast changing at that. Too many stimuli to manage.

I wanted to control everything. I felt deeply for issues like street children, especially those on our street, endangering themselves by running after taxi cabs. I was always upset by the traffic. I wanted order. I wanted to control the buses and the tricycles.

I was forever worried about our daughter in London; I was worried about the heavy schedules of my husband; I was worried for my health.

Eventually, I realized I had to be kinder to myself. So, I tried the Ho’oponopono way of life. It stopped me from blaming people, things and events. I constantly checked my thoughts for negativity. But I felt I was missing out on the joys of life. I drew inspiration from Dr. Page, Esther Hicks, Michael Tamura, Neale Walsh, Rabbi Darfour, Wayne Dyer, George Sison, Tato Malay, Gil Edwards etc.

Lately I have been seeking solace in Joyce Meyer’s “Living Courageously”. She wrote:
“… I believe that we can choose to believe what we want to believe, so why not believe something that will benefit you?”

“If I base God’s love on circumstance, one day it appears He loves me and then the next it may seem He doesn’t. But when I receive it by Faith, it is always mine and can never be taken away from me unless I decide to let it go…”

I have found peace in the writings of Joyce Meyer. She writes of things closest to the religion I grew up in.

As long as there are some who think fearful thoughts of lack, of warfare, of unforgiveness of unworthiness, etc the kingdom of God/light cannot manifest. Examine the prayers of various religions. Chances are they are based on unworthiness. God who is all love and all good wants to give but man insists he is unworthy. Man from his level of unworthiness cannot access the blessings that are from a different level of consciousness.

Christians believe that man has been redeemed by Jesus but stubbornly behave as though redemption never happened.
Personally, I went through a lot of learnings the hard way during this Christmas season. I had all types of oppressions with communication. My cellphone went crazy. I had to go to the Globe office twice last December. It was a repair shop at the mall that finally fixed my phone this January.

The Internet has been horribly slow. (It still is). The Internet is my only link to our daughter in the UK and lately in France. I have been feeling as though nothing good could be accessed. Luckily I bought Joyce Meyer’s book “Living Courageously”. It confirmed that fears and negativity won’t allow access to blessings.

I am a disciple of Einstein in the sense that I believe no problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that produced it. I have been personally applying this when I pray over problems. I consciously go to a higher level by invoking my divinity. I remind myself that I am made to the image and likeness of God. I go beyond my fears and feelings of unworthiness. Often this is not easy after all the years of being reminded I am but a poor sinner. I recite the Ho’oponopono formula over and over again to heal the erroneous programs running in my consciousness. This season when the Internet is horribly slow, I don’t play the cleansing melodies but simply recite the “I am sorry. Please forgive me…” cleansing statements.

Learning from Dr. Christine Page how my personality (thoughts, emotions, and the physical world) limits me , I surrender to Source who is almighty. I submit to the all-knowing God already in me. More often than not God answers my prayers according to his plan. Lately I have experienced many oppressions but with better understanding attained by stillness and silence instead of complaining I have been blessed with far better circumstances, superior to what I prayed for.

Funny how images of Job, of the Angelus prayer etc. cruise along my mind. I m not a fan of the Bible nor of formula prayers. I have found peace in the images now that I have a positive interpretation of the God experience thanks to Bro. Ebner, George Sison, Tato Malay, Esther Hicks, Wayne Dyer, Joyce Meyer etc.