Much of what I learned from home, school, church and society have become highly irrelevant if not harmful for a 73 yr old like me. I would be healthy and happy NOW had I lived in a culture that believed that God is within me, that God wants me happy and prosperous. For all that I have learned from Tato Malay, Dr Lipton etc I still find it difficult to make a leap of faith. It is difficult for me to discard my old beliefs even when I have seen how they limit me.

Sometimes, I wonder why or how I can have a spontaneous conversion like St Paul’s. I have had my own close wake-up calls: severe, clinical depression in the 90s, a mild stroke in 2012 and my fall last March 16.

Beliefs are part of the cognitive therapy I am using. Inspired by an Internet International  Yoga article about PSOAS muscles, I have been doing my originally crafted exercises. I have experienced some improvements in my standing and walking. I have gained more mobility and flexibility on my left thigh and leg.

The exercises together with the WAKI pen application for hours on end must have improved my blood circulation thereby easing the pains as what Dr John Sarno has written about.

Another improvement is that the WAKI pen must have removed blockages similar to what Fr Belita wrote about in “Release for Wellness”. The removal of blockages has been evidenced by farting. How unglamorous! But what a relief from stomach pains and even pains on the upper arms near the armpits.

My problem with mobility and flexibility may be related to what Dr Christine Page wrote about fear of going forward because of memories of the past and anxiety over the future.

As I discarded some limiting beliefs, I felt changes in my walking. I can’t say accurately which happened first- the change of beliefs or the improvements.

But I am sure that the improvement in my walking since June 27 happened after I discarded my limiting belief about not accepting visitors in our condo.

Several weeks ago I learned from the Internet that the Medical Society of America took “PAIN” off the list of vital signs. Accordingly I choose to write about Dr Jean Cruz’ magnesium spray not as a pain reliever but as an  aid to my blood circulation. With an improved circulation I no longer suffer from oxygen depletion therefore  my standing and walking have improved significantly.

The point of attraction is not the challenge/temptation/stimulus itself. It is the sacred moment when one reacts or responds to the challenge. Never before!

I learned this the hard way. I agonized for years after watching the documentary of “The Secret”. I stretched and stressed myself to perfection. (An impossibility)

During the day I would worry about Emil. At night I would worry about Julie Anne as she lived her day in London. I was on a 24 hour high-alert state. What with my fertile imagination! What if my worries attracted disasters to Emil and Anne?

I failed to realize that as I fought with my thoughts, the very struggle may have caused a version of ‘what you resist, persists’.

Lately, I finally understood what M. Tamura meant with:

“When crises arise in your life. they are not due to something inherently wrong with you.”
“Although you may take them personally, situations in your life don’t happen to you. They just happen. And you are involved in them according to the way you respond to [them]”

My favorite Dr Sarno quoted Benjamin Franklin: “Nor is it of much importance to us to know the manner in which nature executes her laws; tis enough to know the laws themselves.”

I don’t agree with Benjamin Franklin. I have an inquisitive and investigative mind. Family, culture and environment saved me from being a heretic. I have to admit I am a repressed iconoclast. I have had a difficult time accepting things in faith although for many, many years I was too compliant to authority. Too many years of conformity led to my severe , clinical depression in the 90s. I suspect my many ailment sprang from suppressed emotions. This I learned recently from reviewing a book of Dr John Sarno.

Much of what I have written in my website is “only circumstantial evidence, but it is highly suggestive” (Paraphrased from Dr Sarno)

I wish somebody more qualified han I am would pick up the data and conduct formal research.

According to Dr Sarno: “Modern medicine has been primarily mechanical and tructural in orientation. The body is viewed as an exceedingly complex machine and illness is a malfunction in the machine brought about by infection,trauma, inherited defects, degeneration, and of course, cancer. At the same time medical science has had a love affair with the laboratory, believing that nothing is valid unless it can be demonstrated in that arena.”

I know too well from experience my doctors require laboratory tests before each visit. It makes me feel that going to the doctors without laboratory result would be useless!

“Unfortunately, some things are difficult to study in the laboratory. One of these is the mind and its organ the brain.”

“But since most physicians see their role only as treating the body, the psychological part of the problem  is neglected even though its the basic cause.”

After many years of searching. After so many ailments I have decided that the healthiest worldview for my sanity and spirituality is from “infinite Possibilities”.

“Our first responsibility in life is not to make this world a better place or to tend to those less fortunate, but to live up to our own high standards, to act with faith that our dreams are ‘meant to be and to maintain a tolerance and compassion for our divine journey’

This sounds selfish to traditional thinkers but this is what I need after years of searching and getting sick many times.

By being so responsible to ourselves the world will become a better place, and those around you will richly benefit, not just from the love you’d share but from the example you become.”

OF COURSE, I am not happy with the author’s pronoun shifts from “our” to “your”

Today I will write about pain again but from the perspective of Dr Sarno. I like Dr Sarno’s description of pain as: “all the tissues suffer from oxygen deprivation, so that one may experience both muscular and nerve pain.”

From my experience, with Jean Netario Cruz’ magnesium and especially when I spray several drops of magnesium into my drinking water various types of pains on different occasions disappear.

I lke Dr Sarno’s explanation of why in spite of advances in science I, like countless others, still experience various types of pains.

“Traditional medical diagnoses focus on the machine, the body, while the real problem seems to relate to what makes the machine work – the mind… physical pain but that acute discomfort is induced by psychological phenomena rather than structural abnormalities or muscular deficiency.”

Dr Sarno refers heavily to tension : “The word tension is used here to refer to emotions that are generated in the unconscious mind and that , to a large extent remain there.”

“The kinds of feelings referred to are anxiety, anger and low self-esteem (feelings of inferiority). They are repressed because the mind doesn’t want us to experience them, nor does it want them to be seen by the outside world. It is likely that if given a choice, most of us would decide to deal with them, but as the human mind is presently constituted, they are immediately and automatically repressed – one has no choice.”

He continued: “Everything medical is influenced in some way by the emotion. I believe that all medical studies are flawed if they do not consider the emotional factor.”

I truly like how Dr Sarno understands the medical practitioners: “Most contemporary medical investigators cannot accept such an explanation (pain being a signal of oxygen deprivation) since it violates their basic assumption that the etiologic explanation for physical abnormalities must be in the body itself. (not in the mind). They cannot conceive of the idea that something like back pain might originate in the mind.”

I wish more physicians would pay attention to the studies of Dr Sarno. After all science requires that all new ideas be validated by experience and replication.