After many years of searching. After so many ailments I have decided that the healthiest worldview for my sanity and spirituality is from “infinite Possibilities”.

“Our first responsibility in life is not to make this world a better place or to tend to those less fortunate, but to live up to our own high standards, to act with faith that our dreams are ‘meant to be and to maintain a tolerance and compassion for our divine journey’

This sounds selfish to traditional thinkers but this is what I need after years of searching and getting sick many times.

By being so responsible to ourselves the world will become a better place, and those around you will richly benefit, not just from the love you’d share but from the example you become.”

OF COURSE, I am not happy with the author’s pronoun shifts from “our” to “your”

Today I will write about pain again but from the perspective of Dr Sarno. I like Dr Sarno’s description of pain as: “all the tissues suffer from oxygen deprivation, so that one may experience both muscular and nerve pain.”

From my experience, with Jean Netario Cruz’ magnesium and especially when I spray several drops of magnesium into my drinking water various types of pains on different occasions disappear.

I lke Dr Sarno’s explanation of why in spite of advances in science I, like countless others, still experience various types of pains.

“Traditional medical diagnoses focus on the machine, the body, while the real problem seems to relate to what makes the machine work – the mind… physical pain but that acute discomfort is induced by psychological phenomena rather than structural abnormalities or muscular deficiency.”

Dr Sarno refers heavily to tension : “The word tension is used here to refer to emotions that are generated in the unconscious mind and that , to a large extent remain there.”

“The kinds of feelings referred to are anxiety, anger and low self-esteem (feelings of inferiority). They are repressed because the mind doesn’t want us to experience them, nor does it want them to be seen by the outside world. It is likely that if given a choice, most of us would decide to deal with them, but as the human mind is presently constituted, they are immediately and automatically repressed – one has no choice.”

He continued: “Everything medical is influenced in some way by the emotion. I believe that all medical studies are flawed if they do not consider the emotional factor.”

I truly like how Dr Sarno understands the medical practitioners: “Most contemporary medical investigators cannot accept such an explanation (pain being a signal of oxygen deprivation) since it violates their basic assumption that the etiologic explanation for physical abnormalities must be in the body itself. (not in the mind). They cannot conceive of the idea that something like back pain might originate in the mind.”

I wish more physicians would pay attention to the studies of Dr Sarno. After all science requires that all new ideas be validated by experience and replication.

Now that my post-surgery pains are more than just tolerable, I can think straight. I wonder if it is the other way around!

Sardello, a fan of Rudolf Steiner wrote: “When there is a dysfunction of the organs, the life processes create an intense stimulation of the nerve processes, which is experienced as pain.”

After surgery my metabolism went awry. I had so much gas in my body. Although my left foot was taken off traction, I still felt pinned down to one side because my left foot and  leg were bandaged snugly. I barely heard one doctor say it was to prevent embolism. Obviously my nerve processes were over stimulated hence the pain.

According to Sardello: “Pain has to do with the nerve processes of the body. In normal life, when we are well, the nerve processes function in smooth relation with the life processes and we feel a vitality in the organs of the body…. Soul processes are also reflected in the organs of the body, and are thus intimately related to the life processes.”

Sardello continued: “Modern medicine looks at pain as a technical problem. The majority of physicians put forth the view that pain can be managed primarily through drugs. Others believe that some pain cannot be managed and offer death as a remedy kindly called doctor-assisted suicide. Neither group sees ant value in suffering itself and both views have a one-sided sense of pain, limiting it to the physical realm. With such an outlook, intense feeling becomes unbearable because the spirit is easily broken.”

I now see why doctors did not seem to believe my pains throughout my medical history not only this time when I broke my left hip.

“All physicians undergo a discipline early in training that shuts them off from their feelings in the presence of someone in pain. Confronted with a reality over which they have no control, they concentrate solely in the practical concerns of what can be done.”

“And God made us in his image, a seed containing the whole of Divinity so that, in our flowering, life could have a partner in its grand waltz. The celebration, would then be complete.”

“For humanity, to fulfill life’s own purpose, God gave the human soul what nothing else in all of nature possessed: free will”  (Tamura)

“For it is from love that we are from. And to love we must return. This is the journey of the sou we call life. To be who we are, to have all that is within us and to freely express our divine heritage – that is our purpose for living and the destination of our journey.” (Tamura)

Sadly “By the time we’re four or five, most of us begin to forget our divine heritage. Then we begin seeking anything that might ease the pain of separation, isolation, and loneliness. We try to fill the void we feel with someone or something in this world” (Tamura)

“We forget who we re, and the dynamic forces of materialization which are continuously manifesting the world, hypnotizes us.” (Tamura)

From “Self-Healing”, “No one else knows exactly what is most appropriate for you.”

“You are a spirit being having a human experience and are here to learn who you really are and what your purpose is.”

“All your answers are within you, but you must first choos one, grow it, and then learn to apply it to your life.” (tamura)

Dr. Emiliano T. Hudtohan, AB, BSE, MA, EdD

Pearl’s hip surgery on March 22 put her on forced vacation from her website postings at readerscenter.com.  And she very much obliged me to blog, just like Julie whom she requested  earlier.  Mind you, she also assigned me a topic: caregiver as healer. I was her caregiver on three crucial life-threatening events.

Mind-Emotion Turbulence
The first was when she partially lost her voice and was given leave of absence from Assumption College for severe mental and emotional fatigue. I used to bring her out of town, regular trips to Our Lady of Mount Carmel, Lipa City, where Mother Prioress Sr. Mary Grace Rillo assured her of spiritual, psychological and financial support.  That assurance dispelled her uncountable dark fear of the future.

Sr. Grace gave Pearl a sapling from the convent vine where Our Lady appeared to Teresing Castillo in the 50s.  When the third sapling grew in our apartment garden, it signaled the healing of her mind, body and spirit fully manifested by the return of her voice.  In Bong Nadera’s Centennial winning literary piece, Mujer Indigena, Sr. Grace is one of the 12 indigenous healers cited as Madre (Sapi X, p. 45).

As caregiver, I prayed over her once and after I raised my hand over her head, she released food waste and was relieved from stomach cramp.  After that, I knelt beside her as she was lying on the sofa; I sang Yaweh I know you are near, I know you are here. Then, I noticed small electric fan resting on the floor, which was pointed towards the face of Pearl, was turning towards me.  The uneven flooring could have triggered the movement, but my senses told it announced His presence.  Being a Catholic lay minister of the Holy Eucharist at that time; for me, it was a theological event.  And my pre-Spanish ethnic research reminded me that I am an asug, a male version of a babaylan who was a female community healer.

Blood Sugar and Blood Pressure
The second caregiving incident took place some three years ago when Pearl’s blood sugar triggered a high blood pressure.  With two male Grand Tower security guards, we were able to put her on a wheelchair and brought her to San Juan de Dios Hospital.  There she was diagnosed with minor blood clot at her cerebellum.  For three days, with no reliever, I posted myself at the waiting area of the ICU.  When she was settled down, her cardiologist asked how she was; she answered she was feeling fine, not because of the    presence of the medical team of doctors but it was because I was in the room.  Here I realized that presence of a loved one creates energy and has a healing power to bring about consciousness, clarity, and normalcy.  A new understanding of presence as energy confirmed my research in the nature of quarks, the smallest particle of matter [overriding the half-century old idea of atom].  In discussing quarks I often discuss among my graduate students at De La Salle University, Manila; De La Salle Araneta, Malabon; San Beda College, Mendiola;  and De La Salle College of St. Benilde. I tell them that the husband of Belo was Atom Henares and they have a son named Quark.  This vividly demonstrates who is much smaller. As our body is reduced to organs, cells, molecules, atoms, and quarks, we appreciate the nature of quarks as light and matter.  And in Einstein’s equation: energy is simply a configuration of mass [matter] and light. Pearl’s health challenge gave me a second chance to be a caregiver. This time I explored the new science of quantum physics and the nature of quantum energy resident in every quark present in her body.

Physical Off-Balance
The third caregiving incident happened after her hip surgery.   Dr. Bernardo of San Juan de Dios Hospital briefed us, saying her fractured hip bone had to be replaced by titanium. Secretly, I wondered how the procedure would be: size of bone replacement and integration of metal and cell muscles.  Dr. Trix Punzaran, Pearl’s co-faculty and surgeon of SJDD, eased my mind when he told us the new technology in surgical medical science.  Here, I regained my faith and appreciation of Rene Descartes whose scientific principles are today mastered to perfection by experienced medical doctors.  Right there, my metaphysical science pendulum reverted to physical science pole, fully convinced that medical intervention will directly addressed and responded to Pearl’s body in distress as she experienced extreme pain.  Later that week, Dr. Mendiola assured Pearl that surgical operation and medical intervention are immediate and timely, in contrast to herbal and alternative medicine that is non-intrusive.  Somehow, this loosened up Pearl’s limited belief in medical science taken from a book: What Doctors Did Not Learn in School.

Her hip operation entailed tremendous physical effort on my part to help her manage her movement: turning from side-to-side, sitting up, getting out of bed, using the walker, and sitting on the commode.  The body has mass and Pearl has massive weight.  It took three SJDD attendants to help her get inside the taxi as we left the hospital. At Grand Tower,  another four male burly guys, headed by SGuard Mark Custodio  lifted her literally and be seated on a chair [GTC wheelchair was used for another emergency that time] until she settled down in our bedroom.

Physicality is as real as spirituality.  The lesson I learned is to be virtuous; instead of taking science on one side and pitting it against metaphysical science, now recognize the oneness of the body-spirit reality.  The very nature of human existence is body-spirit.  The science that addresses the body physicality; metaphysical science focuses on the spirit and the nature of consciousness.  Metaphysics, likewise, cannot deny the physicality of human nature.  And so, Einstein’s formula of Energy equals the intricate interaction of Light [spirit; non-material entity beyond the senses but nonetheless real] and Matter [body; concrete material reality readily seen] I now fully recognize.

The caregiver to be a spiritual healer must have a balanced view on Cartesian science and the New Science of Quantum Physics to fully understand the total nature of the person being cared for.