I believe that God does not need me nor anybody else nor anything. God is complete; perfect. God does not even need to be worshiped.

as early as pagan times, people worshiped because of their natural yearning fora power greater than themselves. Worship is a human need not God’s.

Encourages by “Urban Shaman”, I have opted to worship God by doing and being the best I can. I like the Hawaiian shaman’s way of doing things with only their bodies and their minds, without drums nor other tools.

I am determined to be as healthy as I can get, whether I still have to use my cane for walking. I’ll be happy to walk with a cane but alone without the support of my husband or any security guard or a favorite parking aid when we are at the mall.

I want to use my mind efficiently – to do things through my thoughts, not my body.

“…an intensely imagined experience is just as good as the real thing.”

“By using full sensory imagination in which they perform every time, the athletes create body maneuvers which make the physical performance easier and better.”

I have been using the above process for my walking.

Before I chose to leave God to enter into this life with all its challenges, I was given all I would need to deal with the programs/rules of the universe.

The general instruction was to go and explore how it is to be made to the image and likeness of God.

I believe I made a particular contract with God to follow a peculiar and personal pathway to ensure my return.

I believe my husband and our daughter also have their own contracts. And so do all human beings. Ultimately we all will return to Source. It is just a matter of who goes ahead.

After reviewing “Urban Shaman” I got more clues on how to navigate my journey with less difficulties.

“It is that people are what they are and they do what they do.”

“No matter what they say, they’ll do what they do and that’s what I expect.”

“If it isn’t what i want, then I do something to change myself.”

A recent newspaper article of Bong Osorio has a similar message:

“Real people don’t behave as rationally or as predictably. We are familial and emotional and the reasons behind the choices we make aren’t so easily measured.”

That article quoted Loebar of Dentsu Aegis Network: “We go with our guts; we hear what we want to hear; we choose our own ‘facts'”.

Mike Dooley, Dr Christine Page, Gill Edwards, M Tamura, S Boorstein etc have taught me to be kind to myself.

After the March Indonesian trip of Emil I am aware of a certain degree of self-mastery in my life. After our April-May trip to Singapore I am certain that I am connected with God. (not the angry God of the Bible) After the 5th anniversary of my 2012 stroke I see clearly my purpose for choosing to enter this life equipped with all the god given gifts to met all challenges. After weeks of reviewing “Urban Shaman” I am sure the best place for me is our condo in Vito Cruz.
No need to move to Hawaii nor to Singapore. Not even to London nor to Sydney.

I believe the best place for me for working against 3 basic assumptions mentioned in “Urban Shaman” is our condo. I like our unit where I have everything I need: my plants; my laptop with my music, Facebook, my website, google etc. my books.  Food is delivered. Laundry is picked up/delivered.

Needless to say our unit is the best place for me because Emil lives here with me. The whole security force of Grand Towers also the maintenance people are my family.

The assumptions that cause problems even grief according to Serge Kahili King are:
1.  that you know what another person is thinking
2.   that other people know or should know what you are thinking
3.   the rule of generalization.
I also believe what Dr Page wrote:
“My only responsibility is to create a loving environment which allows others to resonate with their inner truth.”
Gill Edwards and Mike Dooley have their versions which I wrote about in previous essays.

I believe God gave me all that I need to meet the challenges posed by the programs/menus of the Universe. I sometimes wonder if it is my ISTJ personality traits. But Dr Page wrote something about the needs of the soul. being different from the needs of the personality

“Soul Types” has several helpful insights for me in my spiritual journey. I am sure eventually I will be able to resolve the apparent conflict with what Dr Page wrote.

One ISTJ stated: “Spirituality is a process of growing both in understanding and in dependence. Little by little, I’ve found enough concrete proofs that I can trust God with the details of my life.”

In my case , because of Ho’oponopono I have not been blaming God for challenges, problems, irritants. I have drawn a clear line separating the challenges of life/universe from God.

The details of my life are mine to handle creatively with the gifts I got before i chose to leave God to enter into this life.

“Many ISTJs want to clearly grasp the purpose and benefits” of religious practices. I no longer want to participate in meaningless rituals especially those that make me a mere order taker from church people!

“…their tendency to build their own principled foundation”.

Lately, I prefer spirituality to religious practices, dogmas, man-made rules which are often broken even by those in high places in the church.

“My relationship with God continues to evolve.” This resonates a lot with me.

After the Indonesian trip of Emil last March  I was brave and creative; after our trip to Singapore this April and May I am braver and  more creative After May 12 the 5th anniversary of my 2012 stroke i am even braver and even more creative.

I believe in God, my SOURCE. As Source I believe I will ultimately return Him/Her. I don’t think God has to test me before I can return to Him/Her. I was given all that I needed to return before I chose to enter this life.

I was a bundle of nerves as I approached the international airport T3 last April 30. I was silently reciting my mantra: “I am brave; I am creative.” i was anxious as to how the airport personnel would deal with the titanium on my left hip. Our travel agent as well as my doctor who armed me with a medical certification were not all reassuring. Internet stories were scary!

But my consciousness worked!!! Nobody even bothered to ask about the titanium. I was speedily provided with a wheelchair.

In Changi, the female attendant could not be bothered. i told her i had titanium on my hip. She retorted! but the wheelchair also has metal.

Unnecessary anxieties! The best antidote now is : “I am even braver and even more creative.”

Rabbi Darfour upholds my belief:
“…I make myself aware of the fact that God is there and establish direct relationship and communication between God and myself.”

My version is God is in me. I simply have to silence myself and connect with Him/Her.