This October, I have been receiving too many nudges about the lack of balance in my life. I have had ocular migraines which I have not had since 1979. i suspect its due to ASTIGMATISM.

“Frontiers of Health”: “Astigmatism: the reflective surface of the two eyes are not symmetrical and suggest the need in this life to find a BALANCE between one’s intuition and logic and to use them in harmony.” (Dr Christine Page)

Uncomfortable changes in my metabolism also indicates lack of BALANCE. My Monkey Mind has been unreasonable. Of course this indicates lack of BALANCE. I need clarity.

Frontiers of Health:

“This clarity of mind is the essence of true intellect, the highest form of intelligence where the analytic process is used to sort, reject and understand what is being said and what has gone unspoken.” (Dr Page0

“When the quality is combined with compassion and resonance of the heart, the power of intuition emerges.” (Dr. Page)
Frontiers of Health continues: This facet of the soul (third Eye) has the quality of discernment, objectivity, clarity, detachment and universal love…” (Dr Page)

This reminds me of of what Gary Zukov said about looking at the present moment but not being affected by what is happening.

Also what he said about being a multisensory individual and going to one’s highest self.

“Instant Emotional Healing” has relevant reminders for me: “Cognitive therapy ultimately changes our emotional responses by changing our core beliefs.”

“Sometimes in he formation of core beliefs, what really happened is not as important as how we perceived what happened.”

I go to Dr Christine Page (She is available even on Facebook!) for guidelines to understand what has been happening in my life. She gives comprehensive explanations of psychospirituality even metaphysics. She discusses health issues from the medical point of view and beyond. I go to the books of Louis Hay to fill in the gaps.

Neale Walsch is a constant reminder that God is not a punishing god (So unlike the Bible). He affirms what Dr Page teaches that sickness is not a punishment (for sin).

Gary Zukov has given me the most relevant pointers on how to live in the moment without being affected by what is happening. His guidelines are similar to the qualities of the 3rd Eye.

Needless to say the Ho’oponopono is a daily help along with the Principles of Urban Shamanism.

The context of my worldview is that I am spirit having a human experience. This explains my many challenges as I go about my spiritual adventure exploring what it is to be made to the image and likeness of God.

Shortly after my March hip surgery i decided I am I am my best doctor. This October I chanced on an old favorite “The New World of Self-Healing” by Bente Hansen.

I noticed that allowing both my husband and daughter to follow their respective pathways has taken its toll on my body. This in spite of Ho’oponopono and urban shamanistic protocols.

I have chosen to get help from my books on the chakras I get a lot of help studying the Solar Plexus and the Throat.

Bingo1 The basic need of the SOLAR PLEXUS is valuing the needs of the self. The spiritual aspect is self-worth. Emotions are: anger, resentment, unwothiness and guilt.

I believe i don’t have unworthiness and guilt as issues. But i do have a lot of (suppressed) anger and resentment!

THE THROAT CHAKRA
Spiritual aspect: self-expression
Basic need: ability to accept change
Emotions: FRUSTRATION
keeping pace with the erratic schedule of my husband
helping our daughter with her health issues and work-life balance in London
FREEDOM

to go places on my own without having to be escorted by my husband cause of my walking challenges.

Louis Hay in “You Can Heal Your Life” has similar observations for the throat. Her study about the thyroid is very enlightening.
AND I thought my life in my 70s would be nice and easy!

My self-mastery is not driven by the religious idea of salvation much less by martyrdom. It is motivated by the type of self-esteem/self-confidence used in shamanistic paradigm for a joyful life.

Self-mastery is a necessary ingredient in living my adventure to explore what it is to be made to the image and likeness of God – something I learned from RELIGION during my childhood years onwards.

Self-mastery is my personal response to frustrations/disappointments over unmet expectations. After all, “Urban Shaman” has a practical reminder:

“Things and people are going to deviate (from my expectations) …simply out of CREATIVE SPONTANEITY if nothing else.”

“Creative Spontaneity” is interpreted by me to mean that as everyone else like me has his own pathway from and back to Source.

I believe that everyone else like myself has a SPECIFIC and UNIQUE purpose for coming to this life. Each one is an individuation of God manifested in this life. I gotthis from Neale Walsh.

Dr Christine Page shares my idea of self-direction:
“Imagine if your thoughts, words and actions were not judged on the basis of someone else’s dictates and experiences but as your own sense as to whether they resonated with a deeper truth within.”
Bente Hansen has chapters about this in her book “The New World of Self-Healing”.

Several know that beyond man-made rules there is n inner knowing of what is right and what is wrong. Religion calls this CONSCIENCE but I don’t think RELIGION takes this seriously!

When one s aware of one’s divinity there is no need for man-made rules. This is my belief and my experience!

Lately, I have met several who not knowing about their divinity LIVE by their INNER sense of knowing and live far more exemplary lives than those with RELIGION!

Once more Dr Page has something that guides me:
“This may sound too radical but this is the way of the future, where PERSONAL and INNER morality guide an individual’s activities not man-made rules fully appreciative that there is nothing we do, say or think that doesn’t affect someone else somewhere and EVENTUALLY RETURN TO US.”

Self-correcting like the Montessorri tools for learning!

In less than a year I will be 75. Imagine the many limiting beliefs I have to unlearn. But I can hear the ever-optimistic Dr Lipton reminding me. To paraphrase him: why should I moan over the many things I have  yet to do? Why not celebrate what I have accomplished so far? And like Frank Sinatra- to it not in a shy way!

For example, I have found joy in my recent discovery. For unknown reasons I developed skin rashes in my inner right elbow. I was simply led to use papaya skin peelings on my rashes. After about 6 days, my skin exfoliated. New, clean skin!

Of course, now my diet has become even more boring. I stick to what from experience is good fr my blood pressure, sugar level and my muscles especially on my left side.

I marvel at my self-mastery. Not even the concerned reminders of my husband about my Spartan style can move me.

I follow the Ho’oponopono paradigm which holds me 100% responsible for everything in my life. This makes my life (especially my health) a business between me and Source. I believe I was given all I need to explore what it is to be made to the image and likeness of God.

I still need a cane. i believe I chose this in my subconscious. I have yet to discover the  programs/memories  that made me choose to continue walking with a cane. But this does not make me angry with God. In fact this has moved me to become even more creative – co-creator with God.

PRINCIPLE # 7 Effectiveness is the measure of truth.

Corollary: There is ALWAYS another way to do anything.

Lately, because of the correction by a Facebook user, I no longer believe I have a personal contract with God. Instead I have adopted Coello’s HIGHEST POTENTIAL as reported by Gary Zukov in an interview by Lilou Mace in the Alps.

God knows what I an be ultimately. I can choose to fulfill my highest potential or I can settle for less.

Recently, a female medical doctor engages my husband and myself in a lively conversation at McDonald’s. She claimed she was sent to change my idea of “I am my best doctor”.I can choose to give the doctors of her recommended hospital a chance or I can stay firm in my belief in self-healing. Will her doctors be driven by BIG PHARMA as usual?

On that same day, when I had my hair dye session, my stylist shared her self-healing practices. Inspired by her, I can go back to my tried and tested Turmeric capsules.

My personal experiences demonstrate how I have evolved spiritually as well as towards a healthy being.