“The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” My interpretation of the statement in my ontological reality is that I have chosen to act from my higher self. I have opted to empower Emil by allowing him to follow his specific pathway which includes a hectic schedule which horrifies me. However, my erroneous traditional/cultural ideas of retirement have caused resentful thoughts which have generated various body aches and pains.

Now that I am aware of this I can have a better chance of coming out victorious especially with the help of many audio-visuals in YouTube that heals overthinking, that heals conflicts-struggles, that heals pain etc.

With the awareness that intention reversals are a reality, I can be more patient with my body and heal my resentments.

“…the answer is waiting for you; you just need to develop the skill to see it.” (Maria Nemeth)

Those are reassuring words for me. My propensity for asking questions (verbalized and in secret) is one reason why I have found 2017 very challenging. In 2007, in Singapore the doctor of our daughter kindly dealt with my many questions regarding the inflammation on thee thigh of my husband contracted from the swimming pool in the complex of the condo of our daughter.

The doctor told me: “We will come to that.”

More answers from Nemeth: “The spiritual path is about going inward to find what’s important to you

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then also going outward to do something in physical realty that will benefit not only your life but also the lives of others.”

“That spiritual principles aren’t about wwhat’s good or bad, positive or negative.” This is entirely new for me; I have a scrupulous conscience acquired from strict Catechism lessons.

“Those are psychological judgments, which don’t occur in the same domain as spiritual principles.”

This will help me to live accordingly to the dictates of my inner Higher Self.

I believe I was not banished into this life. I believe that my body was meant to be healthy. I just can’t explain YET! I am not yet capable of explaining what I know internally. I believe there must be an explanation as to why and how my body succumbed to the prevailing culture of sickness, struggle, conflict etc.

My Latest Medical Report

Recently I chanced on vital information that may help me understand why i have been very sickly since the 90s.

Years ago, I learned from Dr Sarno that all pain is caused by OXYGEN depletion. I believe him but his theory has never been accepted by mainstream medicine. And now he is dead.

I have studied and reviewed the explanations of: Dr Page, Dr Lipton, Louis Hay, Carolyne Myss etc but I have yet to truly learn what I need to be healthy.

In the 90s a former student who was concerned gave me a book. It tagged te thyroid gland as the cause of all diseases. It even offered EVENING PRIMROSE as a cure all. It helped to restore my voice. But now when I took the capsules again, they dd not help at all.
Maybe the capsules were only meant for my voice problem which may have been due to thyroid depetion.

For this period in my life, I believe I have found an explanation to my health issues. The Vagus Nerve- “It has parasympathetic control over the heart, lungs and digestive tract.”

THE VAGUS NERVE:

Quotations are from various articles available from Goggle
“…nerve is responsible for certain sensory activities and motor information for movement within the body. Essentially it is part of the circuit that links the neck, heart, lungs etc”
“…it helps keep anxiety and depression at bay. Opposes the sympathetic response to stress.”
” it is less remarkable that it plays a role in IBS.”

One of the meanings of RESONANCE according to “Urban Shaman” is:
“In human terms this means that the state of the mind and body determines what kind of energies will most influence it.”

I experienced this recently with Dr Page’s response to my question on Facebook on how to release negative thoughts. I readily did what she suggested and I have been helped.
But I used my own version of the process she suggested. I have been flushing down the toilet my negative thoughts, fears, anxieties etc. I enjoy the amusing protocol/process.

Another meaning of RESONANCE is “the reinforced vibration of a body exposed to the vibration at about same frequency of another body. Speaking in human terms, this means that your fear will tend to increase the fear of those around you and your confidence will tend to increase the confidence of those around you.”

My happy experience with the above meaning of RESONANCE happened in 2012 when I was in the ICU after a mild stroke. When my husband was finally allowed to visit me, I felt ALIVE! I brushed off the attending physician. I wanted only Emil.

Another example was in 2016. I must have resonated with the hospital staff, one medical doctor who explained the procedure to me the day before the surgery and of course with Emil.

I did not even pray obsessively formula prayers nor the Ho’oponopono mantra the night before. and I slept soundly. Even as I was brought to the operating room the next morning I was at peace. I was not afraid at all!

“Giving thanks helps us see more closely and more clearly how we are so blessed in all aspects of our life.”

“We lessen the focus on our lack. We begin to be pleased with the big and the little things we have.”

The above statements from Mr. Pido Aguilar led me to review my favorite books. I am disappointed that “Urban Shaman” mentions giving thanks only in connection with the ritual of blessing land newly bought.

Vitale’s “Zero Limits” repeats ‘I thank you’ as part of the Ho’oponopono prayer.

Dr Christine Page’s many books do not have any statement on gratitude!

Of course Dr Lipton and Mike Dooley have Facebook posts on gratitude.

It was an old favorite book by Carol Adrienne which contained many pages on gratitude. This book is now so very dirty with my handwritten notes.

“Earth, Spirit Living” has been quoted by me several times in previous essays in the past:

“Among other things, GRATITUDE opens our minds, heart, senses and creativity to the good that we wish for.”
“When Life Changes…” by Carol Adrienne

“Gratitude unifies the mind with the intelligence of substance, so that [a person’s]
thoughts are received by the formless.”

“Spiritual development comes from keeping our minds open, our hearts open and having an attitude of GRATITUDE…”

“Give thanks regularly for what you already have. GRATITUDE is one of the best ways to raise our spirits to a higher frequency.”