From Easter Sunday to around April 7 or 8 I had an outpouring of blessings. This made me believe in Urban Shamanism. Then I had a serious attack of ocular migraine plus challenges from my cellphone and Mozilla Firefox. By now I think I am better off with Sylvia Boorstein as my guide.

7th Principle
Effectiveness is the measure of truth. There is always another way of doing anything.

“I am totally convinced that suffering arises when i struggle with events in my life that i cannot change. Yet from time to time i persist in the struggle. Habits die hard.”

I struggle with events that i cannot change because of an erroneous interpretation of Hicks’ Law of Attraction and Martha Beck’s manifestation teachings. I feel a failure when I can’t create the reality i want!

Come to think of it even Urban Shamanism has led me to think I can and must have the reality I want.

“If my mind didn’t cling i would be totally fearless” Sylvia Boorstein makes my life so simple.

“But my mind still does cling, so I am frightened that i won’t have what i think I want.”

“It’s not such a big problem anymore because fear doesn’t frighten me as much as it used to.”

“I know it’s from clinging and i know it will pass. I can tell myself ‘I am frightened now because even though i know whay’s true i have forgotten it right now.’

How truly consoling. How very good Sylvia is for me.
“That possibility that conviction gives me a lot of hope in the middle of the biggest fright.”
If only I can remember this each time I am frightened!

Pain is inevitable; suffering is optional.

After dayS of outpouring of blessings, ironically I had a bad case of ocular migraine mid morning. I was not ready for this attack. I frantically used the bizarre pencil biting cure I got from YouTube. But relief did not come fast enough. i used a lot of magnesium spray. I even took cider vinegar with honey.

As though this wasn’t enough. It recurred when I woke up after a massage! I had to process things. I realized how much I need Faith. Not the dogmatic type hinged on redemption . Not the valley of tears paradigm. Not the propensity to seek redress via penalty/punishment.

I need Faith that liberates me from fretting/worrying about my significant others. To me Faith means believing that each one has his/her own specific pathway back to Source. That he/she has been given everything needed to return to Source. So no need for me to micro manage!

Faith also means that pain can be transmuted into energy that can bring miracles to the lives of my significant others.

Pain is physical but the cure may have to go beyond the physical. This is my belief. Medicines,even massage my not be as effective as the subliminal tapes on YouTube and the acupressure targeting specific emotions such as resentment, grief etc.

I believe there is no need to instill guilt and to demand redress. I believe in consequences embedded in thoughts dwelt in – passing thoughts though they pester one. Harmful acts of course have embedded consequences. The average man may want instant redress.

I believe that one creates one’s HELL! Sylvia Boorstein has taught me the importance of a clear MIND and an open Heart.

I am guided by the 7 principles of Urban Shamanism. But daily I am inspired by Facebook posts of Dr Lipton, Mike Dooley, Gary Zukav Lilou Mace etc. My favorite prayer warriors re: Wayne Dyer, Dr Sarno, Louis Hay, Candice Pert, several relatives, former students I believe can relate better with my many issues.

“Nothing Goes Away till the lessons are learned…” Paraphrased from a post by Lilou Mace as quoted from an Asian nun.

I think I am beginning to see why I still need to walk with a cane. I have envied a Korean, senior student of my husband. He also has an implant but he walks without a cane!

After our March 5 to 9 Singapore reunion with our daughter I have realized so much about myself. I know that in time I will walk AGAIN at least the way I did before my surgery. I have resolved many issues. So…

“Challenges are inevitable….” Paraphrased from a post from Biology of Belief

In Singapore, I finally understood that the Law of Attraction does not protect me from trials/ challenges!

I heaved a loud sigh of relief. I finally understood this. All this time I thought something was wrong with my consciousness work. Why did I still have issues after 3 years or even more of serious consciousness work.

March 26
With my husband lecturing in Davao, I woke up one morning to find a kind of plastic cover on the floor. OH No! Don’t tell me somebody from a higher floor threw the plastic. Then I examined the ceiling. I saw that the cover of the fire alarm device had fallen.

Conveniently I called the lobby to ask for 2 maintenance men I knew. Not on duty. Security mentioned a man on duty. I knew him! Just anoher angel sent by the Universe to take care of me in Emil’s absence.

“The moment I believed MAGIC….” paraphrased from a post by Lilou Mace

The Youtube videos on pressure points are not as effective to me as the miracles and healing tapes. I guess from the posts about vibrations on Facebook , I respond more to the subliminal. My lower self must be so stubborn it needs to be bypassed through subliminal messages.

DAILY I strive for a CLEAR MIND AND AN OPEN HEART (Sylvia Boorstein)

I have been using a new protol for weeks now. I am very pleased that while I work on my physical and mental health I can beof assistance to our daughter in London who was overwhelmed with work before she flew to India for work.

I was inspired by the concept of a younger sister of mine in the States wrote about to my husband. TRANSMUTATION of PAIN! I haven’t received the details yet but I ventured to create my own version.

By template i am so full of anxious, fearful thoughts even if I have been seriously working on my consciousness for about 3 years now.

Thanks to Dr Lipton, Gary Zukov, Wayne Dyer, Mike Dooley etc I don’t think i will go into depression again the way i did in the 90s.

Digital healing music, from YouTube have helped me a lot. But TRANSMUTATION of fears, pains and anxiety even irritants are best used than fought against. I have been visualizing my negative thoughts and emotions as solids plucked from various organs of my body and pulverizing such in my mind which i have called as my TRANSMUTATION plant or factory.

At first I used my TRANSMUTATION factory to produce fertilizer for my beloved plants in my bedroom. But when I learned about the misery of our daughter, being overwhelmed with work on the eve of her business trip to India I felt i had to do something drastic.

I felt the Ho’oponopono tapes I sent her were not enough. Even the digital healing tapes were not helping her enough. To think that she had not fully recovered from a bad case of flu!

The comprehensive platform for my new protocol, is the 7 principles of Urban Shamanism.

“The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” My interpretation of the statement in my ontological reality is that I have chosen to act from my higher self. I have opted to empower Emil by allowing him to follow his specific pathway which includes a hectic schedule which horrifies me. However, my erroneous traditional/cultural ideas of retirement have caused resentful thoughts which have generated various body aches and pains.

Now that I am aware of this I can have a better chance of coming out victorious especially with the help of many audio-visuals in YouTube that heals overthinking, that heals conflicts-struggles, that heals pain etc.

With the awareness that intention reversals are a reality, I can be more patient with my body and heal my resentments.