“Because we become frightened as soon as a difficult mind state blows into the mind, we start to fight it.” (Sylvia Boorstein)

“We try to change it, or we try to get rid of it. The frenzy of the struggl makes the mind state even more unpleasant.” (Boorstein)

Aversion is the mind state that has been troubling me lately. Every morning when I wake up I check the status of my elbows, my left elbow especially.

Once I see that I still have skin irritations I feel both anger and fear. Of course I fight against my anger and fear.

When i realize what has been happening I struggle to get rid of my aversion: me anger and fear. The struggle creates more negative responses and of course affects the chemical balance in my body.

It takes so much effort to remind myself of the NATURAL MIND as taught by Sylvia Boorstein.

“Here I am.”

“It is the response to the challenge to acknowledge the truth of the present moment, to recognize what needs to be done, and to be prepared to do it.” (Boorstein)

After many challenges this 2018, I now am convinced that Sylvia Boorstein’s interpretation of Buddhist teachings is the best guide for me.

“Regardless of our planning,it (life) is essentially unpredictable.”

“I was so relieved to meet people who were willing to say life is difficult often painful, and who still looked fine about admitting it.”

“Most important, they looked HAPPY.” (Boorstein)

Sylvia Boorstein: “No matter hos lofty our insight, we are fundamentally animals, conditioned by our experiences.”

I have resolved to build a new chemical structure for my body in the face of skin eruptions. But my body apparently still is conditioned by my long yeras of experiences with antibiotics.

Inspired by Dr Lipton on Facebook, i am following a vitamin and herbal protocol avoiding antibiotics not only because I can’t buy them without doctor’s prescription but because I feel I have had enough antibiotics since my childhood.

It has been more than a week of vitamins and herbs but my skin eruptions still appear. Pain and itchiness have both disappeared but one or two eruptions on my left elbow still emerge. Elbow? what a quaint site.

I just need to do more work on my mind with the help of Sylvia Boorstein.

Because of many challenges since April of this year, my body has erupted into skin inflammations in my arms. early in April, I know i had skin rashes due to Paracetamol. And i thought it was the safest pain killer for me!

after a week of rashes, I broke my paradigm of being my best doctor. I texted a close friend, a medical doctor, who prescribed an antihistamine plus a traditional skin calmer.
My body has taken such a long time to respond to treatment. After my early birthday lunch a concerned Chinese friend ordered from her sister in China an ointment delivered to
her via DHL.

Also my husband asked my cousin, a medical doctor to prescribe an ointment. My skin cleared! After my May2 birthday I was gifted with a birthday cake topped with canned cherries. I feasted on the cherries. The next day I had new, painful inflammation on my elbows. How frustrating, indeed!

i did a lot on Internet researches. I resolved to heal myself by vitamin therapy NOT by antibiotics because I know I have had so much antibiotics during my years in our province
before I got married.

However, eventually I had to get an antibiotic ointment which I had a hard time buying without prescription. sadly, I hardly experienced relief from the use of the ointment.

I decided to go to a bigger drugstore hoping I could get an antibiotic without prescription. But I asked for an ointment suggested by my Internet research. At first I was asked for a prescription but I explained that this was a recurrent problem hence I had no prescription this time around. What convinced the sales woman was my showing her my elbows!

Now it’s almost the end of May. I am a bit angry with my body. Gratefully i saw on Facebook a post by Dr Lipton. He said something about the futility of fighting the old. This has given me an insight. I just have to build a new chemical structure for my body instead of going against the existing imbalance. With the help of my MIND my body will respond to the new chemical structure of vitamins instead of relying on antibiotics.

Of course I will need the teachings of Sylvia Boorstein on the NATURAL MIND.

Being my best doctor is NO JOKE! Not at all. But I believe it’s the most prudent thing for me. For all he serious monitoring of my diet, my medicines (still a few), my daily activities and even my THOUGHTS I still get DRAMATIC problem.

I carefully chose a paracetamol over other pain killers weeks ago and yet I have been plagued with a skin allergy.

I had to ask a medical doctor, a friend, for help to stem the allergy. It did stop the excruciating itchiness but the marks have created havoc on my arms and thighs. How lucky I am that my face has been spared.

Now that i am less agitated, I have expanded my Internet research. To my dismay i learned that several of my favorites have HISTAMINE. Pomelos Crab sandwiches Avocado. Cider vinegar is supposed to help but it gave me more rashes. I have been using cider for many purposes for years. Eating 2 apples weeks ago worsened my allergy.

I thought for a while bananas were safe. Even mayo triggered more rashes. Many household remedies listed in the Internet just have not been working for me.

Indeed I don’t belong to categories featured in the INTERNET. Which BIG DATA can work for me?!

“Any moment of clarity undisturbed by the tensions of JUDGING, or PREFERRING or REJECTING or DESIRING is a moment of freedom” (Sylvia Boorstein)

Indeed why complicate my life with judging, preferring, rejecting, desiring. According to Neale Walsch: “The point of life is not to get anywhere – it is to notice that you are and have always been already there. There is no such thing as an incorrect path”

My belief is that everybody has his/her own pathway to go back to Source. That being the case why should I waste my time judging, preferring, rejecting, desiring. So I can’t blame anybody for choosing his way just as I make my own choices.

“Restlessness is the mind scanning the horizon for the next impending catastrophe.” (Sylvia Boorstein)
My husband has told me countless of times that when I solve one problem I always look for another.

“My mind has the capacity and the tendency to take any essentially neutral data and spin it into worry.” That was Sylvia Boorstein but my husband can identify that as coming from me.

“I am totally convinced that suffering arises when I struggle with events in my life that I cannot change yet from time to time I persist in the struggle.” (Sylvia Boorstein)

“Habits die hard”
SOLUTIONS:

“Cultivate a mind so spacious that it can be passionate and awake and responsive and involved and care about things and not struggle.”
ALSO

“We could condition the mind to such spacious clarity that our experience would come and go and the mind would remain essentially tranquil”