Many miscommunications,
in the hospital bring lots of PAIN.

“I know the tendency to struggle in the mind comes from taking one” own story personally rather than seeing it as part of the great unfolding of cosmic drama.”

It might as well be me speaking rather than Sylvia Boorstein. I just can’t detach myself from everything and anything happening around me.

Lately in one single day. All the elevators in our building didn’t function. We were scheduled to go to the mall that day; it was hard enough to squeeze in that mall trip into the ridiculously! super busy schedule of Emil.

Okay. i had lots of things to do in the condo. I never run out of things to do inside our condo and enjoy life as well. But food was a problem. All our sukis were not willing to use the stairs to go up to the 37th floor. AND to go back down.

Luckily we were able to convince a young waiter to deliver. Then I realized our landline still was not working because of a PLDT strike. Next problem. How to connect with the lobby.

Double whammy for me. We were set to go to the mall to ave my venerable cell phone repaired. It turned out my charger bought only last June wasn’t working. Maybe the real problem is my ancient phone causing the new charger to burn out fast.

“I can see how I get trapped in my stories (That is Boorstein speaking). I often don’t see., “How I struggle, how I suffer, how I wish i didn’t and how ultimately things change and resolve.”

“Acknowledging my own suffering in spite of the years of practice (More than 2 or 3 years in my case) and whatever wisdom or understanding I might have, makes me sensitive to what must be the enormous pain of all the people I’m sharing this planet with.”

How I wish I have the attitude of the people with less academic credentials in our building.

Through it all I am convinced that before I chose to enter into this life (Not banished) I received everything needed for this PERSONAL journey. This is the only DOGMA I believe in.

I marvel at how I have been inspired by the first wife of Frank Sinatra who died recently at age 101. From what I know she was not religious at all!

“If things are painful and we cannot change them we can at least be confident that our pain will not last forever.”

In my case it is not PAIN; it is excruciating itchiness of the skin when I eat something that is not acceptable to my leaky gut.

“Often it is the thought that pain will never end that makes it seem unbearable.” Even that thought that this won’t last forever does not seem to lessen the ordeal especially when I am in bed already.

“Right understanding means feeling terrible. remembering PAIN is finite, and taking some solace from that remembering.”

In time I will learn to accept the terrible feeling of itchiness and surrender to my current reality instead of struggling against the itchiness as guided by Sylvia Boorstein.

Two events or two situations happening one after the other does not necessarily mean a cause and effect relationship. I have to remember this! When I relax my health protocols and I get aches or rashes it does not necessarily build a cause and effect relationship. I must be kind to myself.

But the positive side of the above realization is that using the process of elimination i have stopped buying expensive skin ointments that don’t relieve me of itchy rashes anyway. I have experienced more relief from Vitamins C and A. Likewise I have been helped by Evening Primrose capsules.

I have eliminated seemingly innocent vegetables like Broccoli. I hope Asparagus, not as readily available as Broccoli. does not give me skin allergies. I like Asparagus.

Internet researches have made me realize that some essential oils I have been using are safe; I just have not been applying them correctly

Indeed, it is not easy to be my own best doctor!

“Practicing remaining calm and alert through the whole range of body and mind states that present themselves- all the while not doing anything to change experience but rather discovering that experience is BEARABLE.”

The above piece of Buddhist wisdom from Sylvia Boorstein is applicable to me whenever I itch due to new food in my diet. It helps me not to scratch to prevent scars on my skin. I have stopped buying expensive ointments that don’t work anyway. What have helped are vitamins A and C.

For me HEALTH is an inside job: what I take in orally and what I take n through my mind. My thoughts play a large role in maintaining the chemical balance in my body. “Emotional Agility” and posts by Dr Lipton have been helpful.