My favorite authors now dead had failed relationships. i wonder how they were able to write such inspiring works but were not able to sustain lasting relationships. Gill Edwards, Wayne Dyer, Lynn Grabhorn even Rabbi Darfour who was divorced at least twice.

I am glad Sylvia Boorstein in her 80s is still happy in her marriage. I don’t know how old M. Tamura is but he is still happy with his wife. I admire Dr Bruce Lipton and his wife

My husband volunteered an explanation based on our own lives. The partners have greater chances of having a lasting relationship when they are engaged in the same field – both of us are educators.

M Tamura and his wife are together in a ministry.  But the marriage of Burt Bacharach with Carole Bayer sager with whom he wrote many musical compositions did not last; Carole had a lot of ugly things to complain against Burt!

Sylvia Boorstein works separately from her physician husband but Sylvia has written about how her husband always initiated the endeavors to develop their brand of spirituality.

Whatever is the X Factor, I believe a relationship has to be sustained with constant care and respect for the individual.

My basic worldview is that everyone is made to the image and likeness of God. Therefore, the wisest thing for me to do is to let go. I can now stop being anxious over my husband and our daughter and respect their own pathways.

If anybody does not do as expected, I simply consider it as creative spontaneity as per the teachings of “Urban Shaman”. This includes even my husband and our daughter.

I am sad over my long years with religion which made me always anxious if not sick. I was forever checking whether I was doing enough, whether I was nearing perfection (Be you perfect as your father is perfect!). I was made to believe everybody else was my responsibility even at my expense. Utterly disempowering.

I thank God I was inspired to opt for a new worldview since May 2017. Long overdue, of course. Obviously.

I believe now I chose to enter into this life fully equipped with god-given gifts to meet all the challenges from the universe.

I would like to share this blessed worldview through my website.

Borrowed from “Urban Shaman”  I want my readers to be “helping people to discover their own power to change their lives.”

I want my readers to be guided by 7 simple, pragmatic principles,not by dogmas.
“More often the teaching will be by example, suggestions, counseling.”
Suggestions would be: “consciously intended but not organized like a school.”

I would like to encourage my readers to be free to explore new ways and means of doing things.

I definitely do NOT BELIEVE in one size fits all mentality.

“if the goal is important you should never give up, you just change your approach.”

“If a chronic illness isn’t clearing up hen do something you haven’t been doing, such as working more with the mind and emotions.”  I suppose I haven’t done enough work with my thoughts and emotions!

“…shaman [is] a healer of relationships between mind and body, between people, between people and circumstances, between humans and nature, between matter and spirit.” Because I believe in self-healing, I need to become a shaman – according to the Hawaiian tradition of Serge Kahili King and not that of Fenella  Canorell, nor that of Jaime Licauco not even that of Fr Belita.

Last Monday, when I was feeling unusually peaceful and not anxious but feeling well, I decided to check my blood pressure which i have not been doing for weeks. To my dismay the reading was very high.

I changed the batteries of the machine because in the past the readings were inaccurate just before the batteries died.

With new batteries, the readings were still very high. But i did not panic. I refused to text my husband nor to call my favorite security guard at the lobby.

What was the point of going to the hospital when I was symptoms free!

Next morning I asked my husband to use the machine. It was normal. I used it after some time and the readings were still very high.

That same morning, my husband assured that I was not sick, brought me to the mall. I walked a lot, with my cane of course.

Today is Wednesday. I still am symptom free.

This sounds strange. Eerie. But years ago, I touched the rim of our dining table and the whole oval rim just fell off. And it was not even metal.

I have titanium on my left hip. Don’t tell me I have become a bionic woman with very high blood pressure reading and feeling well!

The paradigm I chose this May 2017 commits to a philosophy of life inspired by “made to the image and likeness of God” learned from the Catholic Catechism of my childhood many, many years ago.

I just don’t have the energy to check what the Bible says about my divinity.

“Urban Shaman” by Serge Kahili King validates my ideas. “Urban Shaman” follows the Hawaiian tradition not the Shamanism of Fr. Belita’s book nor the shamanism of Fenella Cannel nor that of Jaime Licauco.

Neale Walsch is even more encouraging.

The 6th principle of “Urban Shaman”
states: “all power comes from within. I have been applying this to my health.

“All the power that creates your expression comes from your own body, mind and spirit.”

“Confident authority is the key to conscious creation, whether used with words, visualization or feelings.”
This is why I believe I am my best doctor.