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More than ever I believe I am my best doctor. Lately, for all the careful monitoring of my health, challenges seem to drown me. Many new symptoms appear. I don’t want to believe it’s my thoughts attracting them. Neither do I want to blame the symptoms on my age.

Ho’oponopono inspired me to go back to a book a student gave me in the late 1980s when I had a voice problem. The book on the thyroid had chapters on blood pressure and diabetes.

Today, Sept 3, the index finger of my right hand is pain free, thanks to the Evening Primrose Oil capsules recommended by the book.

So I am back to taking herbal remedies to counteract the damages brought about by my medications prescribed by my many doctors. it is a very difficult battle against BIG PHARMA and mainstream doctors. But I am no longer alone! So many have awakened!

I’m very lucky, my meals are delivered by a former chef who understands my needs. God truly provides.

Of course Dr Jean Netario Cruz’ Magnesium spray is still a staple in my health protocol. I help myself with Facebook posts of Dr Lipton, Mike Dooley, Neale Walsch, Dr Christine Page etc.

Dr Christine Page posted on Facebook: “Be patient: the universe never gives you more then you can handle in the moment.”

In my current worldview/Philosophy, I have a loving God who is not out to test me. In fact I believe I came into this earth blessed by God with everything I need to explore what it means to be made to the image and likeness of God. This I was taught by the Catholic Catechism when I was in the Grade School so long ago. I was taught the same thing in High School. Even in College with 24 units of Theology I learned the same thing. It is such a puzzlement that the Church keeps dis-empowering people by insisting that man has to suffer in order to be saved. Saved from what?

But here comes Dr Page with a benevolent universe. My belief is that God does not test me; it’s the universe that doles out challenges.

It is consoling to learn from Dr Page that I can handle the challenges of the universe that is benevolent after all.

Ho’oponopono absolves the Universe also: “There’s nothing out there. It’s all in you. Whatever you experience, you experience inside yourself.”

Even Shamanism assures me that I can handle the challenges.

Years ago, I learned from Sylvia Boorstein that i can very well manage according to he Buddhist/Jewish wisdom.

Yesterday, August 29, Mike Dooley posted on Facebook an article that as pat of our divinity there is actually nothing that is not good.

Last August 28, early in the morning I personally got a Facebook message from Dr Page about the benevolence of the universe:

“Always (benevolent). But sometimes we don’t recognize the gift until much later.”

“Zero Limits”: “As with everything in the ancient Hawaiian tradition, it all begins in the thought, and the great healer is love.”

As early as the 90s when I got sick I knew I had to do something about my thoughts- mostly fearful. One of the first authors who influenced me was Carolyn Myss. Her “Why Don’t People Heal and How They Can” captivated me.

Before I had my mild stroke in 2012 I was already learning from: Gill Edwards, Wayne Dyer, Dr Christine Page, Michael Tamura, Joe Vitale etc.

After my stroke, especially through my recovery, I feasted on the wisdom of Dr Page, Rabbi Balfour, Esther Hicks, Wayne Dyer etc.

After my hip surgery in 2016 it was primarily Dr Page, Dr Lipton, Dr Sarno, Joe Vitale (again) and Serge Kahili King’s “Urban Shaman”

Facebook posts and videos have been a great help.

For about a year now, I have chosen the most helpful from my favorite authors and crafted my own personal health protocols to emerge as my best doctor.

“There’s nothing out there. It’s all inside yourself.” This quotation from “Zero Limits” is the best reason why I believe I am my own best doctor.

I have always been considered a marginal case by my many doctors. I don’t think the medical researches used by my doctors included me in their sampling. Dr Page has a similar idea. Besides nobody has the patience to monitor my thoughts, my sensitivities, my energy levels throughout the day.

I have been keeping a diary of my daily diet, my maintenance medicines, alternative medical practices etc. I used to rely a lot on my WAKI acupuncture pen to replace massages by the blind. To date I still consider the Magnesium spray of Dr. Netario Cruz as a daily part of my health care.

I do a lot of Internet researches which have to be taken with a grain of salt because too often like BIG PHARMA many researches push a product: a pill, capsule, food, or a book.

I have crafted my own exercises instead of going to the free gym of our building. I don’t believe in workouts with health counselors; they usually do not respect my personal pace nor space!

ESM acupuncture for the emotions has been helping me with he programs/thoughts that hinder my healing.

Margaret Wheatly: “We’re old enough to know that life will keep interrupting our plans and surprise us at every turn of the way. It helps to notice this wisdom that we’ve been forced to acquire. Surprise is less traumatic once we accept it as a fact of life.”

At this stage of my life, I find the above rather cynical. I believe that I made a contract with God before I entered into this life. I believe I received everything needed to explore what it is to be made to the image and likeness of God.

Perhaps Wheatly was referring to humans relying only on their five senses. I prefer what Gary Zukov wrote about multisensory humans

Or what Martha Beck wrote about attachment: “As you drop your mental stories and watch your own feelings, you’ll notice that the gripping desperation of attachment is something you can release.”

For me the best comes from “Zero Limits”: “Dr Han Lew’s work teaches us to let go and trust the divine while consistently cleaning all thoughts and experiences that surface in the way of hearing the divine. By this continuous work, we can clear the weeds of programs so we can better handle life with ease and grace.”

Indeed with Ho’oponopono my life recently has been lived with less struggle and more ease and grace. But I have had to be very patient. So hard to wait to be inspired by God; I would have preferred to react and fix things ASAP.

“Too many people, myself included, were visualizing and affirming in order to manipulate the world.” (Joe Vitale)

“I now know that isn’t necessary. You’re better off going with the flow while continually clearing whatever comes up.” (Joe Vitale)