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Spiritual Initiation

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“Spiritual initiation involves more than just a ‘pleasant thought’ picture in the head, it requires courage and commitment from the heart and a willingness to step forward, often into the unknown, having faith in the wisdom of the universe.”   (Dr Christine Page)

I personally know how much courage and commitment it takes yet I am peaceful because I have an inner knowing that I have opted for what is right for me.

Margaret Wheatly wrote: ” “We’re old enough to know that life will keep interrupting our plans and surprising us at every turn of the way. It helps to notice this wisdom that we’ve been forced to acquire. Surprise is less traumatic once we accept it as a fact of life.”

I am helped by the universe. I have received personal messages from Dr Page, Alan Seale, WAKI Indonesia Tato Malay and messages from my prayer warriors from the dead.

“…the plan of the individual is more important than that of the creator.” (Dr Page) This would send ministers from my church and believers into a livid state.

Stepping forward into the unknown for me means following my own path. It also means allowing both my husband and our daughter to follow their own paths.

To me it personally means that I have learned the hard way that the universe does not honor entitlement. It does not feel inclined to respect schedules agreed upon by my husband and myself.

I no longer blame anything nor anybody, not even myself. Ho’oponopono taught me well – the hard way. I choose to stay firm in my new belief that God has given me all the tools I need to create the reality I want. Instead of worrying or resenting changes I choose to be more creative  in using god’s gifts so I can manifest the reality i want. I am not a master yet so I experience a lot of difficulties especially physically/emotionally.

My Hip-py Story

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I have been speaking about my hip surgery (March 2016) even written essays about it. But it took our daughter suffering from pain above her left hip to awaken me o the realty of my hip as a health issue.

All the while, I was focused on my left knee, my left foot, my left shoulder – my walking. I hardly considered my left hip! Dr Christine Page has much to tell me:

“The hip represents ‘stability of movement’…illness of the hip also represents fear of change, (Goodness! My entitlements are showing.) insecurity, (But I have been announcing to the universe that I am secure) and a need to control one’s environment.”

Control!! This explains my fear of change. Because of this I even dread reincarnation. I have agonized over the hectic schedules of my husband. Although my intention has been to allow both my husband and our daughter to follow their individual paths in reality my INNER CHILD resents how they affect me. And I know from Dr Sarno that resentments case physical pains. Resentments cause oxygen depletion.

Dr Page offers a solution” It’s important to understand that by accepting the opportunities and challenges we meet in life, that the path is not always smooth and easy but will allow us to gain inner strength and HOPEFULLY enjoy the journey.”

Margaret Wheatly wrote: “We are old enough now to know that life will keep interrupting our plans and surprising us at every turn of the way. It helps to notice this wisdom that we’ve been forced to acquire. Surprise is less traumatic once we accept it as a fact in life.”

Living with My Stomach

The night before my husband left for a lived-in planning seminar, i had an awful case of acid reflux. I am reviewing what Dr Christine Page wrote about INDIGESTION:

“…assess whether or not we are using fear, anxiety and guilt to avoid making personal decisions…”. I don’t think his applies to me. Long before the weekend, I told my husband I wanted him to go – that I would 1904210_633655076683071_1898974733_nbe able to take care of myself.

“Taking responsibility for our own happiness or standing in our own power.” This was what inspired me to let my husband go and for me to be alone for the weekend. After all this is not the first time. It is the first for 2017. The concern is over the many challenges his schedule for the next months before our Singapore trip pose for me. And to think the agreement was to have no trips before Singapore!

“By becoming overwhelmed by situations with the resultant feelings of helplessness, we can ignore the need to take responsibility for our actions.”

While I do get overwhelmed I never feel helpless! So unlike some prayers composed by my church. For years now, with the help of Ho’oponopono I don’t blame anything or anybody. I don’t even blame myself.

Alone, I used the time to carefully monitor my food intake. I have taken only what in the past did not irritate my stomach. I have stayed away from butter and sugar. I have subsisted on more protein than carbo.

My experience! I can handle any issue as long as my stomach is not in pain. I can walk faster and confidently with my cane. I can think clearly. I am more patient.

“…by reducing our problems into manageable pieces and then calmly dealing with each in turn, we gain confidence and he knowledge that we do have choices in our life.”

“Security comes from knowing who you are on a DEEP LEVEL (beyond name, nationality, gender, job etc) loving yourself whatever happens, being flexible….”

Of course, I do have the choice as to whether to be a slave to my stomach or not!

The Base Chakra

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Dr Christine Page wrote: “It is only when our soul is fully incarnate within the physical body and is expressed through the base chakra  that we reach full understanding of our place in the greater plan.”

When my BP  soared and my stomach ached awfully, I got nervous  initially. I resorted to lots of Magnesium, Cider vinegar and WAKI pen application. I took 2 tablets of my maintenance medicine but my BP was still high.

I refused to call my husband then attending a late Christmas party as January 6. I resolved  not  to go to the hospital. I stayed firm in my conviction that I am my best doctor. Instead I talked a lot to my prayer warriors among the dead.

When my husband came home, I made sure i acted normal. I applied an ointment he won at a raffle. I drank Turmeric. another prize from the raffle.

By then the Magnesium had caused me to have LBM. I simply endured my stomach pains.
In he morning, after i received ugly text messages from our daughter who had a splitting headache etc., I knew my psyche was out of kilter. It definitely knew the problems of our daughter AHEAD of the text messages. This has happened between my daughter and myself countless of times.

I reached some understanding of my place in the general plan. I was meant to remind our daughter of doing consciousness work; to believe in her divinity; to stop worrying about BREXIT; to stop pining fr alone time etc.

I also understand my role in the context of the pathway of my husband. Never to dwell in his spurts of bad temper and impatience. He had bouts lately. i forgot what our Daughter and i experienced many years back when we crossed him! The story has become part of the family lore!

My husband is by template a genial extrovert but he becomes an ogre when his pathway is crossed. only he knows when he has had enough. It may even be a petty incident.

Alan Seale wisely wrote: “Everyone must find his/her own path.”

Dr Page wrote: “External conditions and other people cannot prevent us reaching wholeness and expressing our Inner Being unless on some level they do so with our blessings.

I have more consciousness work to do. INDEED!

Excess Energy

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Dr Christine Page: “The soul will always attempt to find a method of relieving the system of excess energy either through the physical body or through external circumstances.”

I now think of various types of excess energy in my own life: useless worries and ruminating; bottled up emotions; frustrations with people who don’t think like me; disruptions in my daily plans (too many); misplacing my glasses and even my cane; reacting to missed calls from agents of condos etc.

Dr Christine Page: “But that which is not expressed externally will through the universal law of balance and equilibrium need to be experienced internally to restore harmony.”

Ideas, even dreams have to be released. This can have moral/ethical implications. It is as if the universe won’t allow anybody to keep things to himself/herself1 i suspect the universe does not favor Introverts. I feel that he universe wants the Inner Being to be empty for Spirit to be buoyant.

Ideas, dreams, feelings have to be expressed externally. Bottled up thoughts, emotions become toxins that cause disequilibrium, disharmony, dis-ease.

Health and spirituality are challenges no matter where or when for me. I choose not to argue with the teachings of the church. I would rather do research on what Dr John Sarno has to say about repressed emotions.

Dr Page has something that may address desires/emotions that the church may not approve of.
“If we have lost sight of our purpose and have little connection to the core, it’s easy to cling onto old redundant sources of assurance most of which revolve around deeply engrained belief systems energized by fear.”

I look forward to the time hen what Dr Page has written about will come true.
“This may sound too radical but this is the way of the future, where personal and  inner morality guide an individual’s activities not man-made rules, FULLY APPRECIATIVE THAT THERE IS NOTHING WE DO< SAY OR THINK THAT DOESN’T AFFECT SOMEONE ELSE SOMEWHERE AND EVENTUALLY RETURN TO US.”

I like the idea of personal responsibility.