Lately I have been inspired by what I read from Tamura: No matter how bad things get, know that God is smiling at you: I see God watching and telling me: let’s see how you are going to deal with this.

Lately, I choose not to deal with Problems the conventional way. I usually look at things from the metaphysical level. What lessons do I need to learn? What latent God-given talents am I called to manifest?

I still have those fearful thoughts about a punishing God. But when they appear in the horizon, I right away accept them and let them melt into Divinity. This takes patience and courage. Sometimes it feels as though the fears are so real and true.
Sometimes I am tempted to think of martyrdom. Sometimes I slide into conventional rationalization: what if God will test me beyond my capacity?

No more frantic endeavors to fight against those thoughts. No more fix-it escapades. It is so consoling to rest in: be still and know I am God. Conviction is a blessing.