According to Sylvia Boorstein: “When the heart is noncombative, when it is peaceful- which happens when it is loving – the mind is clear. Wisdom prevails. We understand painful things happen because that’s the way life is. Complete God love, clear mind allows us to forgive life.”

     “The possibility of steadfast loving allows life – whatever its particulars- to always remain a gift.”

     But even Sylvia does not believe in passive acceptance of fate. So I read elsewhere in one of her books. Lately after I “surrender” after I stop struggling with the situation my mind relaxes and I get better insights. I no longer believe that God is punishing me when ordered food is delivered late. Instead I take time to think: “how can I get better service?”

     M. Tamura suggested: “When crises arise in your life, They aren’t due to something inherently wrong with you. Although you may take them personally, situations in your life don’t happen to you. They just happen and you are involved in them according to the way you respond to  [them].”

     I have new insights as to why I had my fall last March 16 after all I announced I would no longer be using my cane. I now think of specifics to improve my balance, to improve my diet etc.

 I think of how much vegetables to eat to improve my blood circulation to make sure my organs don’t suffer from oxygen depletion as learned from Dr Sarno.

     I even spend time planning more WAKI pen time – more than 300 counts. I also think of how much to increase my application of Dr Netario Cruz’ magnesium spray.

     I think of how to manage my emotions – not to repress them otherwise I will suffer from oxygen depletion. I think of how to get in touch with my finer self, deepen my understanding of the situation and reach out for solution already blowing in the wind as taught by Rabbi Balfour Brickner.