Michael Tamura wrote: “… when crises arise in your life, they aren’t due to something wrong with you. Although you may take them personally, situations in your life don’t happen to you. They just happen and you are involved in them according to the way you respond to them.”

Certainly I am not amused with the statements of M. Tamura. Of course I take the situations personally!!!!! Why did I fall last March 16 when just that very morning, I announced to an Ilonggo couple waiting for the door of the mall to open, that I would no longer need my cane in April.

Yes, I would not need my cane because I would need a walker to go around our condo and be wheeled outside the comforts of our unit. What wry humor life has!

“The New World of Self-Healing” seems to add insult to injury with the following: “Everyone has an inner essence, soul a spirit. It is this inner essence that attracts life situations and experiences for your highest good. We may not constantly realize that we invite the lessons needed to assist  our spiritual growth!”

Grrr! I am not pleased with the pronoun shifts! From “you” to “we”.

I agree it took me quite some time to accept that my spirit may have invited my March 16 fall for my highest good. Obviously my ego is still in control.

Our daughter reminded me that my surgery brought together a lot of our relatives and friends to pray for me. Silently, I mused: could they not have prayed for something for pleasant like finally liberating me from my cane which I have been using expertly for three years?

Well, It has made my husband even more loving and caring – my superhero, my healing presence! It has brought to the surface my my secret resistance towads yet again applying for a UK visa. It has made me admit the surgery has given me a convenient excuse not to go to Mass and agonize over the unpalatable sermons, ever scolding!!!!

But Dr Sarno does not subscribe to the theory of “secondary gains”. He believes that the secondary gains which in my case are: not applying for a visa again and not going to mass are forms of conditioning. He believes in “Treat the disorder that is the root cause of the pain.” He was referring to repressed emotions that cause oxygen depletion in the body.

Lynn Grabhorn has given me a refreshing insight towards my pains: “The need to feel the old pain is nothing but a trick  your ego is playing on you to avoid assuming the RESPONSIBILITY for and therefore the joy of life.”

Yes! I am “an unlimited being of light” I can take control. I can recognize what has happened. Yes! I won’t let my ego have its way.