As long as I harbor resentments, blocks and limitations I won’t be able to allow God to give me my heart’s desire. I may be sabotaging myself by feeling unworthy of God’s blessings. For years, I thought I would be more pleasing to God if I deprived myself of what I truly wanted. I believed in a harsh, punishing God the. God was a stingy dispenser of goods then.

Nowadays I believe in a benevolent God. Many of my books cite many problems of the universe; some even hint at a godless universe. However I have even more numerous books about the goodness of God that shines through the chaos in the universe.
I have observed that ever since I believed in a benevolent God even my nightmares have become less frequent. Ever since I cared for more people, my world has become happier.

I have noticed improvements in what  used to worry me. Nowadays I witness non-teaching staff of colleges like SJDDios undertaking advocacies on their own. It’s heartwarming for me to learn that activities like tree planting are not required by a specific subject in college from where points can be deducted from those who fail to participate.

I don’t think I’m happier now because I have retired from work. For an introvert like me it is surprising that my relationships with several former students have become stronger.

Technically, I have less money now that I have retired. I conscientiously live within my SSS retirement pension but I never feel poor. Both my husband and our only daughter would consider it a crime If I live in deprivation.

I wish I had the time and the patience to use Rabbi Brickner’s “tools of biblical criticism, archaelogy, and modern-day cosmology” to carefully study the fate of Adam and Eve. I wonder what “valley of tears” means to humanity now with all the progress in the context of salvation and the Gospel of love.

Several observers, myself included, are wondering why my interest in and concern for SJDDios college lately. Honestly, I don’t know why.
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